从来不曾把东方神起摆上这里，
可是，
今天看了music bank,
2个人的rising sun.
真的很心痛.
我宁愿看着别的新团体跳rising sun,
也不想看见2个人的rising sun.
我妈问我，
你是在看吗? 为什么脸皱成那样?
我说
“是这首歌让我去跳舞的。。。”
我执着，
因为神起对我来说真的很重要。
最起码，
他们5个改变了我的一生。
夸张?
我可以很清楚的告诉每一个人，
没有东方神起，
没有今天的黄嘉红，
没有今天的freezee,
更没有今天的dawn's arch。
5年前，
偶然看见一个广播节目，
辉煌的舞台，
有一个长得很帅气的男生正在跳舞，
舞台上的他，
充满了魅力，
虽然无法明白他唱歌的语言，
可是却深深的被他的表演吸引着，
只是通过音乐，
表达出的感觉，
是多么的实在，
也非常的震撼。
当时的我，
真的被他的表演感动了。
再继续看，
原来是一个5人组的团体，
接下去的10分钟，
我只记得自己沉醉在他们5个人的舞台。。。
从来不知道自己真正喜欢些什么，
一直到我看见他们，
我才找回自己，
原来我喜欢舞台，
喜欢亮光，
喜欢观众的欢呼声，
我希望自己也可以好像他们一样，
用表演来感动观众们，
就好像他们感动了我一样。
这都是我一直以来的梦想。
我不想成为什么大明星，
我只是希望自己能通过表演，
感动大家，
让每一个人可以像我一样，
找到自己的梦想。
当然，
那5个站在台上表演的人，
就是东方神起。。。
节目的尾声是他们得奖，
最佳团体奖。。。
当时的他们都哭了。
虽然不是才刚认识他们，
可是那一刻却感受到他们的喜悦，
得来不易啊。。。
必定是费了很大的努力。。。
团里对我最重要的2个人，
就是现有的东方神起。。
最重要的，
数郑允浩。
是他让我爱上那灿烂的舞台，
是他通过表演感动了我，
让我找到我的方向。。。
沈昌珉，
其实并不是第一个让我爱上东方神起的。
我只是单纯的喜欢他的天份。
其他3个，
我都很喜欢，
对我来说，
东方神起-一定要5个在一起。
我喜欢的东方神起，
让我有勇气追寻梦想的东方神起，
是5个人的东方神起。。。
东方神起散了，
我心很痛。
有人说我执着，
可是没有人明白为什么我执着。
我常说，
“东方神起是我的神”
我是认真的。
虽然他们可能不是真正的神，
可是他们通过表演为我带来很大的启发。
虽然我会追随新团体，
可是东方神起是我心底里，
永远的第一。
我无法把那位置让给任何新团体。
即使现在我再回顾他们的表演，
我仍然和以往的我一样，
被他们的表演感动，
情绪被他们的表演牵引着。。。
我真的很想念5个人的东方神起。。。
现在，
我只能看着这改变了我一生的表演，
再也无法回到以前那样了。
无论如何，
我真的很感谢他们。
谢谢你们，东方神起!
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Sunday, April 10, 2011
自负的我
总觉得自己只有在不开心的时候才会到这里写一写，
发泄心中的不满，
那些没有别的地方可以发泄的心情。
我承认，
我自负。
并不喜欢对着别人诉苦，
一来脸皮拉不下，
二来觉得并没有人会了解我。
即使你能了解，
我自己解决不了的问题，
你以为你可以帮我解决吗?
看，
就凭这么一句话，
别人得到的结论就是，
你他妈的干嘛那么拽。
总被人说三道四，
事出必有因，
最后都是归咎于我的性格,
太过于强悍，
思想复杂，
总是一副不好惹的脸。
开玩笑，
如果我不是那样，
在我生活的这种环境以下，
根本生存不下去。
我自命清高，
我承认。
有很多事情别人认为是“友善”的表现，
我真的无法认同。
我无法很天真的认为做了这些”友善“的举动后，
他们也会”友善“的回报你。
也怪自己人太率直，
不喜欢的东西，
无论如何也拉不下脸去扮喜欢。
不喜欢对着一些人扮友善，
不喜欢扮单纯，
不喜欢攀关系，
不喜欢简简单单毫无思考的去判断每一件事情，每一个人。
别说我想太多，
别说我疑神疑鬼，
别说我神经质，
别说我以小人之心度君子之腹。
我倒是觉得，
我看任何东西，任何事情，
都比你们更加透彻。
我不反驳你，
并不代表我承认自己错了，
更加不代表你说的都是对的。
我只是想让你自己感受一下，
当现实逼近，
你不得不承认我说的都是对的。
只不过，
那个时候的你，
只怕早已经忘记了我曾说过的话。
30分钟前的我，
曾经很在意别人对我的看法，
也很努力想要改变自己迎合你们，
很努力的对每一个人都那么的友善，
简简单单的去思考每一件事情。
可是从刚才那一刻起，
我真的接受不了自己，
无法欺骗自己，
过不了自己那一关，
我做不到。
无法强逼自己去扮演那和蔼可亲的脸孔。
太虚伪了，
我接受不了。
曾几何时，
我对自己是那么的有信心，
能够大声对别人说 ”本小姐就是拽，怎样?
然而现在的自己却流失在人潮中，
毫无主见，
迷失自我。
我讨厌那样的我。
随你怎么说，
我就是我，
拽就拽了，
你能把我怎样?
我拽，
我不可爱，
我思想复杂，
我性格高傲，
我任性妄为，
能怎么办?
那就是我。
总觉得自己喜欢J并不是因为他长得帅不帅，
而是觉得他和我一样，
一样流着那叛逆的血，
一样有着那种我行我素的性格。
之所以能够轰轰烈烈的离开
轰轰烈烈的回去的人
看来也只有他一个。
曾经很在意别人对他的看法，
可能因为感觉上就好像别人在看我自己。
曾经无法接受他的性格，
其实根本就是自己接受不了自己的性格，
可是我刚刚才发现，
我根本没那个必要去在意别人对我的看法。
这些日子让我改变的唯一之处，
就是，
我没必要和他们做一些无谓的口舌之争，
也没必要让每一个人认同我所做的事情，
所以当你发现我开始变得比以前沉默，
那不是为了什么，
只是因为我厌倦了。
发泄心中的不满，
那些没有别的地方可以发泄的心情。
我承认，
我自负。
并不喜欢对着别人诉苦，
一来脸皮拉不下，
二来觉得并没有人会了解我。
即使你能了解，
我自己解决不了的问题，
你以为你可以帮我解决吗?
看，
就凭这么一句话，
别人得到的结论就是，
你他妈的干嘛那么拽。
总被人说三道四，
事出必有因，
最后都是归咎于我的性格,
太过于强悍，
思想复杂，
总是一副不好惹的脸。
开玩笑，
如果我不是那样，
在我生活的这种环境以下，
根本生存不下去。
我自命清高，
我承认。
有很多事情别人认为是“友善”的表现，
我真的无法认同。
我无法很天真的认为做了这些”友善“的举动后，
他们也会”友善“的回报你。
也怪自己人太率直，
不喜欢的东西，
无论如何也拉不下脸去扮喜欢。
不喜欢对着一些人扮友善，
不喜欢扮单纯，
不喜欢攀关系，
不喜欢简简单单毫无思考的去判断每一件事情，每一个人。
别说我想太多，
别说我疑神疑鬼，
别说我神经质，
别说我以小人之心度君子之腹。
我倒是觉得，
我看任何东西，任何事情，
都比你们更加透彻。
我不反驳你，
并不代表我承认自己错了，
更加不代表你说的都是对的。
我只是想让你自己感受一下，
当现实逼近，
你不得不承认我说的都是对的。
只不过，
那个时候的你，
只怕早已经忘记了我曾说过的话。
30分钟前的我，
曾经很在意别人对我的看法，
也很努力想要改变自己迎合你们，
很努力的对每一个人都那么的友善，
简简单单的去思考每一件事情。
可是从刚才那一刻起，
我真的接受不了自己，
无法欺骗自己，
过不了自己那一关，
我做不到。
无法强逼自己去扮演那和蔼可亲的脸孔。
太虚伪了，
我接受不了。
曾几何时，
我对自己是那么的有信心，
能够大声对别人说 ”本小姐就是拽，怎样?
然而现在的自己却流失在人潮中，
毫无主见，
迷失自我。
我讨厌那样的我。
随你怎么说，
我就是我，
拽就拽了，
你能把我怎样?
我拽，
我不可爱，
我思想复杂，
我性格高傲，
我任性妄为，
能怎么办?
那就是我。
总觉得自己喜欢J并不是因为他长得帅不帅，
而是觉得他和我一样，
一样流着那叛逆的血，
一样有着那种我行我素的性格。
之所以能够轰轰烈烈的离开
轰轰烈烈的回去的人
看来也只有他一个。
曾经很在意别人对他的看法，
可能因为感觉上就好像别人在看我自己。
曾经无法接受他的性格，
其实根本就是自己接受不了自己的性格，
可是我刚刚才发现，
我根本没那个必要去在意别人对我的看法。
这些日子让我改变的唯一之处，
就是，
我没必要和他们做一些无谓的口舌之争，
也没必要让每一个人认同我所做的事情，
所以当你发现我开始变得比以前沉默，
那不是为了什么，
只是因为我厌倦了。
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
逃走
曾经看过某某人的剖白
说他们远走他乡
只是为了自己一个梦想
当时不怎么认同他们
可是却不得不佩服他们的勇气
也为他们感叹
竟然可以那么刻苦耐劳
达到自己的梦想
回想自己
17 的时候曾经有这种想法
那个时候的情况和现在差不多吧
茫茫然
对自己的未来毫无打算
可是心底里很清楚
自己想走的路
一定不会被他们接受
那时的我
只能默默的接受
他们安排给我的路
可是自己却很清楚
我压根儿一点也不想要走那一条路
没办法
硬着头皮走下去
可能自己天生不服输
天生爱脸
即使我多么讨厌
我也不会因为这样而给自己一个做不好的借口
说到底是因为自己怕输
好了
他们看到我好像没事那样
渐渐也觉得他们为我选的未来是对的
是真的吗?
自己也不清楚
虽然自己不迷信
可是看到他们兴高彩烈的告诉我说
神明说我是天生的官司料
走这一条路是对的
没错的了
自己也不知道应该高兴呢
还是我得认命
再一次有那逃走的想法
是在我大考的时候
超大压力
一点都不想念书
还得准备KWC总决赛
每一次压力大得一边哭，一边念书
朋友问:"你怎么有时间去比赛啊?"
我笑笑说
安排一下就有了
天知道那安排有多难
时间?
一点都没有
只能把睡眠时间花在练习上
每天练得熬不过时只能躲在角落哭
觉得自己没用死了
一点点小事竟然搞不好
那时心里都在想
逃吧!
去做自己想做的事情
不要再强迫自己去念什么书
当什么律师
我通通不要
可是自己就是没那个勇气
没拿过0分
又怎么会有那份不念书的勇气?
责任感作祟
他们花好多在我身上
我怎样也得把书念好
责任。。。
那是我的责任。。。
在辛苦也得扛下去
比赛输了
心情跌到谷底
还得硬着头皮去考试
又只能天天重复同一个动作
拼命念书，
累了
想起比赛输了
又哭
哭完了还要爬起来
继续念书
就这样重复着。。
自从那次之后
一直都有那个逃跑的想法
跑啊。。。
可是要去那里呢?
总是觉得自己过于理智
重复考虑着每一种可能性
就觉得自己根本逃不了
现实的说
第一个问题就是金钱
真讽刺
新学期开始
他们开始感觉得到我内心的不安分
开始向我施展压力
我很讨厌
讨厌他们重复的告诉我
说要我别再做梦了
说什么跳舞并不是我应该走的路
可是
我要的路
和
你要我走的路
你能肯定的说
我是错的
而你是对的吗?
讨厌她说
“你最近又再发白日梦了吗?”
“干嘛最近一直跳舞?不用念书吗?"
或者是转弯抹角的告诉我
她不喜欢我现在所做的一切
你以为我真的不知道吗?
我静静地不出声
并不代表我什么也不知道
她开始发觉再怎样说
我也是不会放弃
能怎样?
开始变了
三不五时和我吵架
冷战
通常是为了小事情
可我心里很清楚
问题的根源是因为
我开始不受她的控制
我慢慢地迈向我自己心里要去的路
还没到2个月
吵架次数已经多不胜数
而我自己
也因为她而脾气更暴躁
在这种几乎一个星期吵架一次的家里
我能怎样控制自己的情绪?
每一次都是莫名其妙没事情给她说这说那
不然就是说我做白日梦
我已经对自己的梦想一点信心也没有
还得每天承受你那些伤我自尊心的话
我到底能怎样?
同一个念头再一次出现
走吧
逃走吧
可是习惯了
即使再多么的难过
最起码脸上要摆着那一贯强悍
可是
我还是无法接受
她一次又一次的重复说
我现在做的事情都是白日梦
我无法接受
她不停的要求我放弃
我无法接受。。。
我对不明确的未来
有着一份莫名的恐惧感
我害怕逃走以后
我并不会好像某人一样那么成功
可是我另一方面也很清楚
如果我不尝试的话
我这一辈子都会后悔
我害怕自己一个人
害怕逃走会面临的危险
所以当我和她们一起的时候
总觉得很安心
因为我们有着同样的心情
虽然我不知道她们有谁会陪伴我一直到最后
可是
能走多久就一定要一起走
是这样吗?
现在的我，
开始慢慢不想回家了
总觉得回家的脚步很沉重
也开始明白为什么某些人离家出走
只为了那个遥远的梦想
逃走
看起来很轻松的字眼
其实是多么的沉重。
说他们远走他乡
只是为了自己一个梦想
当时不怎么认同他们
可是却不得不佩服他们的勇气
也为他们感叹
竟然可以那么刻苦耐劳
达到自己的梦想
回想自己
17 的时候曾经有这种想法
那个时候的情况和现在差不多吧
茫茫然
对自己的未来毫无打算
可是心底里很清楚
自己想走的路
一定不会被他们接受
那时的我
只能默默的接受
他们安排给我的路
可是自己却很清楚
我压根儿一点也不想要走那一条路
没办法
硬着头皮走下去
可能自己天生不服输
天生爱脸
即使我多么讨厌
我也不会因为这样而给自己一个做不好的借口
说到底是因为自己怕输
好了
他们看到我好像没事那样
渐渐也觉得他们为我选的未来是对的
是真的吗?
自己也不清楚
虽然自己不迷信
可是看到他们兴高彩烈的告诉我说
神明说我是天生的官司料
走这一条路是对的
没错的了
自己也不知道应该高兴呢
还是我得认命
再一次有那逃走的想法
是在我大考的时候
超大压力
一点都不想念书
还得准备KWC总决赛
每一次压力大得一边哭，一边念书
朋友问:"你怎么有时间去比赛啊?"
我笑笑说
安排一下就有了
天知道那安排有多难
时间?
一点都没有
只能把睡眠时间花在练习上
每天练得熬不过时只能躲在角落哭
觉得自己没用死了
一点点小事竟然搞不好
那时心里都在想
逃吧!
去做自己想做的事情
不要再强迫自己去念什么书
当什么律师
我通通不要
可是自己就是没那个勇气
没拿过0分
又怎么会有那份不念书的勇气?
责任感作祟
他们花好多在我身上
我怎样也得把书念好
责任。。。
那是我的责任。。。
在辛苦也得扛下去
比赛输了
心情跌到谷底
还得硬着头皮去考试
又只能天天重复同一个动作
拼命念书，
累了
想起比赛输了
又哭
哭完了还要爬起来
继续念书
就这样重复着。。
自从那次之后
一直都有那个逃跑的想法
跑啊。。。
可是要去那里呢?
总是觉得自己过于理智
重复考虑着每一种可能性
就觉得自己根本逃不了
现实的说
第一个问题就是金钱
真讽刺
新学期开始
他们开始感觉得到我内心的不安分
开始向我施展压力
我很讨厌
讨厌他们重复的告诉我
说要我别再做梦了
说什么跳舞并不是我应该走的路
可是
我要的路
和
你要我走的路
你能肯定的说
我是错的
而你是对的吗?
讨厌她说
“你最近又再发白日梦了吗?”
“干嘛最近一直跳舞?不用念书吗?"
或者是转弯抹角的告诉我
她不喜欢我现在所做的一切
你以为我真的不知道吗?
我静静地不出声
并不代表我什么也不知道
她开始发觉再怎样说
我也是不会放弃
能怎样?
开始变了
三不五时和我吵架
冷战
通常是为了小事情
可我心里很清楚
问题的根源是因为
我开始不受她的控制
我慢慢地迈向我自己心里要去的路
还没到2个月
吵架次数已经多不胜数
而我自己
也因为她而脾气更暴躁
在这种几乎一个星期吵架一次的家里
我能怎样控制自己的情绪?
每一次都是莫名其妙没事情给她说这说那
不然就是说我做白日梦
我已经对自己的梦想一点信心也没有
还得每天承受你那些伤我自尊心的话
我到底能怎样?
同一个念头再一次出现
走吧
逃走吧
可是习惯了
即使再多么的难过
最起码脸上要摆着那一贯强悍
可是
我还是无法接受
她一次又一次的重复说
我现在做的事情都是白日梦
我无法接受
她不停的要求我放弃
我无法接受。。。
我对不明确的未来
有着一份莫名的恐惧感
我害怕逃走以后
我并不会好像某人一样那么成功
可是我另一方面也很清楚
如果我不尝试的话
我这一辈子都会后悔
我害怕自己一个人
害怕逃走会面临的危险
所以当我和她们一起的时候
总觉得很安心
因为我们有着同样的心情
虽然我不知道她们有谁会陪伴我一直到最后
可是
能走多久就一定要一起走
是这样吗?
现在的我，
开始慢慢不想回家了
总觉得回家的脚步很沉重
也开始明白为什么某些人离家出走
只为了那个遥远的梦想
逃走
看起来很轻松的字眼
其实是多么的沉重。
Monday, February 28, 2011
Happy Birthday to Teen Top Ricky!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RICKY!!!!!
awww.. our baby Ricky is officially 17 this year..!!
lets pray that he will grow up another 10cm. XDDDDDD
and
dont forget to pray that L.joe will grow another 15cm. XDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
As a big fan of Teen Top,
i paksa the gals to dance this song. hehehe..
yes, its my idea.
i force them to do it. LOL
here you go, check out the video!
not very good, but i promise i will make everyone practice harder.
XDDD
awww.. our baby Ricky is officially 17 this year..!!
lets pray that he will grow up another 10cm. XDDDDDD
and
dont forget to pray that L.joe will grow another 15cm. XDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
As a big fan of Teen Top,
i paksa the gals to dance this song. hehehe..
yes, its my idea.
i force them to do it. LOL
here you go, check out the video!
not very good, but i promise i will make everyone practice harder.
XDDD
Sunday, February 13, 2011
当我。。
当我开始努力的时候，
别人的脚步开始放慢了。
当我想要放弃的时候，
你却告诉我得继续努力。
并没那么坚强，
责任感告诉我要坚持到底，
内心却开始慢慢松懈。
还能支撑多久， 我不知道。
内心的急躁， 相信应该没人能体会。
开始觉得身边的人无法了解我，
因为他们不明白，
当你可以看见自己的路的尽头时，
你是多么的想要改变那个你不想要看见的结局。
他们只能看见你那莫明其妙的急躁，
飘忽无定的心情，
惹人厌。
当你看着时间慢慢地流逝，
知道自己的时间所剩无几，
你很难控制自己不把一天当成两天来用，
在一切还没结束前，
统统把他给做完。
唯恐到了最后一天，
自己竟然还有什么是还没完成的。
单方面的以为这样就能让自己好过一点，
可以吗?
不然。
也不知道什么时候开始，
觉得自己无论多努力，
却还是停滞不前。
有没有想象过，
当身边的朋友都张开了翅膀，
自由自在的飞翔了，
自己却被遗留在原地?
那感觉，
一点也不好受吧。
很想一起走到终点，
想不到走不下去的人，
竟然是我自己。
别人的脚步开始放慢了。
当我想要放弃的时候，
你却告诉我得继续努力。
并没那么坚强，
责任感告诉我要坚持到底，
内心却开始慢慢松懈。
还能支撑多久， 我不知道。
内心的急躁， 相信应该没人能体会。
开始觉得身边的人无法了解我，
因为他们不明白，
当你可以看见自己的路的尽头时，
你是多么的想要改变那个你不想要看见的结局。
他们只能看见你那莫明其妙的急躁，
飘忽无定的心情，
惹人厌。
当你看着时间慢慢地流逝，
知道自己的时间所剩无几，
你很难控制自己不把一天当成两天来用，
在一切还没结束前，
统统把他给做完。
唯恐到了最后一天，
自己竟然还有什么是还没完成的。
单方面的以为这样就能让自己好过一点，
可以吗?
不然。
也不知道什么时候开始，
觉得自己无论多努力，
却还是停滞不前。
有没有想象过，
当身边的朋友都张开了翅膀，
自由自在的飞翔了，
自己却被遗留在原地?
那感觉，
一点也不好受吧。
很想一起走到终点，
想不到走不下去的人，
竟然是我自己。
Monday, February 7, 2011
future
im so worry.
i have a bad feeling that DA is not going to make it for the koreaboo audition. i've been dreaming bout the audition for one whole week after the dateline for submission. Im even worried when i've found out that one of our video is having views problem because the view count is not increasing at all even if the comments are flowing in.
come to think about it, actually there is nothing much to worry about for the reason being that, I have to admit the fact that our video is just not that good.
from a third party perspective, it might just be an OK video, but to me, or even to the judges, it might be crap. i can see alot of flaws in the video, probably because i know the steps in and out, any discrepancy cant run away from my eyes.
second reason, one of the video is just too short, its only 1minute? I suppose the judges will expect at least a 3minutes video to show off talents rather than a one minute video.
third reason, its just too much people in the video. yes we are joining the competition as a team, but the video is just too short, before the judges can recognize the faces of all 6 of us, the video has already ended. In my opinion, it shud be a bit longer so that they can view us in a better light? im sure this definitely contribute to their decision...
fourth reason, this is towards the gee video. Yes i have to admit im posting the video just to try luck, but im 99.99% sure that judges wouldnt like people auditioning using such a song. haha.. the steps are simple, and we were only lip sync-ing to the song, therefore is nothing so impressive about the video. Any dance team with better coordination can do that.
Fifth reason, they have mentioned about the importance of view counts, and damn it, our videos view count stuck there for dont know how long because of the youtube stupid error. its somewhat strange when the like counts are increasing and when you see the influx of comments, but the view count is not increasing. weird huh? anyway, since our view count is pretty low, and view count is one of the factor where they consider in judging, i honestly think that it works against us.
damn. im listing down the reasons why we WILL fail. Am i being too analytical? Am i being too practical?
I dont know, im just trying my best to give the objective view of our entry video.
when im objectively typing out this passage, i cant control my subjective feeling of sadness, stress, worries and the etc feelings im having now. I regret that i didnt solicit for votes and views.. but think about it, its against the rules, thats why i didnt do it at the first place. and think twice, even if you get hell lots of views, how sure are you that its going to bring u any further? No, you cant get a conclusive statement, then why bother doing it?
another reason why i think we cant make it, its because i dreamt of us winning the audition. anything good that appear in my dream had never realize before, except for once regarding my result but nothing else. so... yeah.. i think our dance video will fall under the general rule? of course i do hope that the dream will be an exception and all 6 of us manage to win the competition.
as much as i say i want to win, i dont have the confidence anymore.
our visual maknae asked "how come arirang contest that time you wasnt that worried but now you are overly worried?"
the reason is simple being that, the arirang contest, you can only get money consideration. yes 1000USD is alot, but its just not that important compare to your future! compare to this audition, winning the contest might actually bring you a possible bright future...
anyway, worst come to worst, it might just be a gimmick, a technique to attract more attention for GNA's solo performance when cube have no real intention to seek for new trainees. Of course I hope this is not bcoz they honetly make me worry for the result.
worry.....
im so worry....
that cube will let DA down..
i have a bad feeling that DA is not going to make it for the koreaboo audition. i've been dreaming bout the audition for one whole week after the dateline for submission. Im even worried when i've found out that one of our video is having views problem because the view count is not increasing at all even if the comments are flowing in.
come to think about it, actually there is nothing much to worry about for the reason being that, I have to admit the fact that our video is just not that good.
from a third party perspective, it might just be an OK video, but to me, or even to the judges, it might be crap. i can see alot of flaws in the video, probably because i know the steps in and out, any discrepancy cant run away from my eyes.
second reason, one of the video is just too short, its only 1minute? I suppose the judges will expect at least a 3minutes video to show off talents rather than a one minute video.
third reason, its just too much people in the video. yes we are joining the competition as a team, but the video is just too short, before the judges can recognize the faces of all 6 of us, the video has already ended. In my opinion, it shud be a bit longer so that they can view us in a better light? im sure this definitely contribute to their decision...
fourth reason, this is towards the gee video. Yes i have to admit im posting the video just to try luck, but im 99.99% sure that judges wouldnt like people auditioning using such a song. haha.. the steps are simple, and we were only lip sync-ing to the song, therefore is nothing so impressive about the video. Any dance team with better coordination can do that.
Fifth reason, they have mentioned about the importance of view counts, and damn it, our videos view count stuck there for dont know how long because of the youtube stupid error. its somewhat strange when the like counts are increasing and when you see the influx of comments, but the view count is not increasing. weird huh? anyway, since our view count is pretty low, and view count is one of the factor where they consider in judging, i honestly think that it works against us.
damn. im listing down the reasons why we WILL fail. Am i being too analytical? Am i being too practical?
I dont know, im just trying my best to give the objective view of our entry video.
when im objectively typing out this passage, i cant control my subjective feeling of sadness, stress, worries and the etc feelings im having now. I regret that i didnt solicit for votes and views.. but think about it, its against the rules, thats why i didnt do it at the first place. and think twice, even if you get hell lots of views, how sure are you that its going to bring u any further? No, you cant get a conclusive statement, then why bother doing it?
another reason why i think we cant make it, its because i dreamt of us winning the audition. anything good that appear in my dream had never realize before, except for once regarding my result but nothing else. so... yeah.. i think our dance video will fall under the general rule? of course i do hope that the dream will be an exception and all 6 of us manage to win the competition.
as much as i say i want to win, i dont have the confidence anymore.
our visual maknae asked "how come arirang contest that time you wasnt that worried but now you are overly worried?"
the reason is simple being that, the arirang contest, you can only get money consideration. yes 1000USD is alot, but its just not that important compare to your future! compare to this audition, winning the contest might actually bring you a possible bright future...
anyway, worst come to worst, it might just be a gimmick, a technique to attract more attention for GNA's solo performance when cube have no real intention to seek for new trainees. Of course I hope this is not bcoz they honetly make me worry for the result.
worry.....
im so worry....
that cube will let DA down..
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
~幸福之歌~
Teen Top (틴탑) - Angel
=====HANGUL=====
credit: Melon Music + chacha-31@blogspot
Girl 꿈처럼 다가온 널
이렇게 꼭 잡아 놓지 않을 거야
you are so beautiful to me girl
첫 눈에 반했던 내 이상형인 걸
참 다행이야 이런 널 만나서
내 가슴이 이렇게 뛰잖아
Yeah
누가 봐도 사랑스러운
누가 봐도 너무나 예쁜
하나하나 너무 완벽한
there's an angel in my heart
눈부시게 예쁜 얼굴은
햇살처럼 환한 웃음은
밤하늘에 밝은 별 같아
there's an angel in my heart
Dream 꿈은 아니겠죠
이 세상 모든 걸 다 가진 것 같아
참 시간이 이렇게 멈춰버렸으면
얼마나 좋을까
시간이 지나 모두들 변한다 해도
난 약속해 네 곁에 있을게
Yeah
누가 봐도 사랑스러운
누가 봐도 너무나 예쁜
하나하나 너무 완벽한
there's an angel in my heart
눈부시게 예쁜 얼굴은
햇살처럼 환한 웃음은
밤하늘에 밝은 별 같아
there's an angel in my heart
하루하루 지나가면
서로서로 닮아가며
너에게 점점 빠져만 가
영화 속 한 장면처럼
멋진 주인공들처럼
I'll give my life to you
[Rap 1]
언제나 너에게 웃음만 줄게
그 어떤 누구보다
행복하다고 말 할수 있게
매일 하룰 시작해 네 생각에
내 입가에 미소가 맴도네
행복해 나 어떡해
[Rap 2]
이 지친 힘든 하루 끝에
네가 내 옆에 있단 게
매일하루 고맙고 난 힘이 되
약속해 네 곁에 있겠다고 난 안 변해
시간이 지나도 널 사랑해 널 지킬게
누가 봐도 사랑스러운
누가 봐도 너무나 예쁜
하나하나 너무 완벽한
there's an angel in my heart
눈부시게 예쁜 얼굴은
햇살처럼 환한 웃음은
밤하늘에 밝은 별 같아
there's an angel in my heart
언제봐도 사랑스러운
언제 봐도 너무나 예쁜
누가 봐도 너는 완벽해
there's an angel in my heart
눈부시게 예쁜 얼굴은
햇살처럼 환한 웃음은
별보다도 반짝반짝해
there's an angel in my heart
=====ROMANIZATION=====
credit: Chichan-Onew + chacha-31@blogspot
Girl kkumchorom dagaon nol
irotge kkok jaba nochi aneul goya
you are so beautiful to me girl
chot nune banhetdon ne isanghyongin gol
cham dahengiya iron nol mannaso
ne gaseumi irote ttwijanha
Yeah
nuga bwado sarangseuroun
nuga bwado nomuna yeppeun
hanahana nomu wanbyokhan
there's an angel in my heart
nunbusige yeppeun olgureun
hessalchorom hwanhan useumeun
bamhaneure balgeun byol gata
there's an angel in my heart
Dream kkumeun anigetjyo
i sesang modeun gol da gajin got gata
cham sigani irotge momchwo-boryosseumyon
olmana joheulkka
sigani jina modudeul byonhanda hedo
nan yaksokhe ne gyote isseulge
Yeah
nuga bwado sarangseuroun
nuga bwado nomuna yeppeun
hanahana nomu wanbyokhan
there's an angel in my heart
nunbusige yeppeun olgureun
hessalchorom hwanhan useumeun
bamhaneure balgeun byol gata
there's an angel in my heart
haruharu jinagamyon
sorosoro dalmagamyo
noege jomjom ppajyoman ga
yonghwa sok han jangmyonchorom
motjin juin-gongdeulchorom
I'll give my life to you
[Rap 1]
onjena noege useumman julge
geu etton nuguboda
hengbokhadago mal halsu itge
meil harul sijakhae ne saenggage
nae ipgae misoga memdone
hengbokhe na ottokhe
[Rap 2]
i jichin himdeun haru kkeute
nega ne yope itdan ge
meilharu gomapgo nan himi dwe
yaksokhe ne gyote itgetdago nan an byonhe
sigani jinado nol saranghe nol jikilge
nuga bwado sarangseuroun
nuga bwado nomuna yeppeun
hanahana nomu wanbyokhan
there's an angel in my heart
nunbusige yeppeun olgureun
hessalchorom hwanhan useumeun
bamhaneure balgeun byol gata
there's an angel in my heart
onjebwado sarangseuroun
onje bwado nomuna yeppeun
nuga bwado noneun wanbyokhe
there's an angel in my heart
nunbusige yeppeun olgureun
hessalchorom hwanhan useumeun
byolbodado banjjakbanjjakhe
there's an angel in my heart
=====TRANSLATION=====
credit: Platypiz@youtube
Girl you come to me like a dream
I'll hold onto you like this and never let go
you are so beautiful to me girl
you're my ideal girl and I fell in love with you at first sight
I'm really happy to meet someone like you
My heart is beating like this
Yeah
Whoever sees you will say you're lovely
Whoever sees you will say you're pretty
One by one are perfect
there's an angel in my heart
Your pretty face is blinding my eyes
Your bright smile is just like the sun
Like a shining star in the night sky
there's an angel in my heart
Dream this isn't a dream isn't it?
I feel like I own this world
If time stops right now
I wonder how great it will be
Even if time passes, or even if everything changes
I promise, I'll be by your side
Yeah
Whoever sees you will say you're lovely
Whoever sees you will say you're pretty
One by one are perfect
there's an angel in my heart
Your pretty face is blinding my eyes
Your bright smile is just like the sun
Like a shining star in the night sky
there's an angel in my heart
Day by day passes by
We've grown to look more like each other
I keep falling for you
Just like a scene from a movie
Like those cool main characters
I'll give my life to you
[Rap 1]
I'll always give you my smile
More than anyone else
I'll make you the happiest person
I start everyday while thinking of you
My smile stays still all the same
I'm so happy what should I do?
[Rap 2]
At the end of this tiring day
You will always stay by my side
I'm feeling thankful everyday and you become my power
I promise to stay by your side I won't change
Even if time passes, I love you, I'll protect you
Whoever sees you will say you're lovely
Whoever sees you will say you're pretty
One by one are perfect
there's an angel in my heart
Your pretty face is blinding my eyes
Your bright smile is just like the sun
Like a shining star in the night sky
there's an angel in my heart
You're always lovely
You always look so pretty
Whoever sees you will say you're perfect
there's an angel in my heart
Your pretty face is blinding my eyes
Your bright smile is just like the sun
Like a shining star in the night sky
there's an angel in my heart
*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*
不知道为什么，
每一次听见这首歌，
就觉得自己很幸福。。。
感觉上好像他在对我唱这首歌。。
好幸福~ ^^
=====HANGUL=====
credit: Melon Music + chacha-31@blogspot
Girl 꿈처럼 다가온 널
이렇게 꼭 잡아 놓지 않을 거야
you are so beautiful to me girl
첫 눈에 반했던 내 이상형인 걸
참 다행이야 이런 널 만나서
내 가슴이 이렇게 뛰잖아
Yeah
누가 봐도 사랑스러운
누가 봐도 너무나 예쁜
하나하나 너무 완벽한
there's an angel in my heart
눈부시게 예쁜 얼굴은
햇살처럼 환한 웃음은
밤하늘에 밝은 별 같아
there's an angel in my heart
Dream 꿈은 아니겠죠
이 세상 모든 걸 다 가진 것 같아
참 시간이 이렇게 멈춰버렸으면
얼마나 좋을까
시간이 지나 모두들 변한다 해도
난 약속해 네 곁에 있을게
Yeah
누가 봐도 사랑스러운
누가 봐도 너무나 예쁜
하나하나 너무 완벽한
there's an angel in my heart
눈부시게 예쁜 얼굴은
햇살처럼 환한 웃음은
밤하늘에 밝은 별 같아
there's an angel in my heart
하루하루 지나가면
서로서로 닮아가며
너에게 점점 빠져만 가
영화 속 한 장면처럼
멋진 주인공들처럼
I'll give my life to you
[Rap 1]
언제나 너에게 웃음만 줄게
그 어떤 누구보다
행복하다고 말 할수 있게
매일 하룰 시작해 네 생각에
내 입가에 미소가 맴도네
행복해 나 어떡해
[Rap 2]
이 지친 힘든 하루 끝에
네가 내 옆에 있단 게
매일하루 고맙고 난 힘이 되
약속해 네 곁에 있겠다고 난 안 변해
시간이 지나도 널 사랑해 널 지킬게
누가 봐도 사랑스러운
누가 봐도 너무나 예쁜
하나하나 너무 완벽한
there's an angel in my heart
눈부시게 예쁜 얼굴은
햇살처럼 환한 웃음은
밤하늘에 밝은 별 같아
there's an angel in my heart
언제봐도 사랑스러운
언제 봐도 너무나 예쁜
누가 봐도 너는 완벽해
there's an angel in my heart
눈부시게 예쁜 얼굴은
햇살처럼 환한 웃음은
별보다도 반짝반짝해
there's an angel in my heart
=====ROMANIZATION=====
credit: Chichan-Onew + chacha-31@blogspot
Girl kkumchorom dagaon nol
irotge kkok jaba nochi aneul goya
you are so beautiful to me girl
chot nune banhetdon ne isanghyongin gol
cham dahengiya iron nol mannaso
ne gaseumi irote ttwijanha
Yeah
nuga bwado sarangseuroun
nuga bwado nomuna yeppeun
hanahana nomu wanbyokhan
there's an angel in my heart
nunbusige yeppeun olgureun
hessalchorom hwanhan useumeun
bamhaneure balgeun byol gata
there's an angel in my heart
Dream kkumeun anigetjyo
i sesang modeun gol da gajin got gata
cham sigani irotge momchwo-boryosseumyon
olmana joheulkka
sigani jina modudeul byonhanda hedo
nan yaksokhe ne gyote isseulge
Yeah
nuga bwado sarangseuroun
nuga bwado nomuna yeppeun
hanahana nomu wanbyokhan
there's an angel in my heart
nunbusige yeppeun olgureun
hessalchorom hwanhan useumeun
bamhaneure balgeun byol gata
there's an angel in my heart
haruharu jinagamyon
sorosoro dalmagamyo
noege jomjom ppajyoman ga
yonghwa sok han jangmyonchorom
motjin juin-gongdeulchorom
I'll give my life to you
[Rap 1]
onjena noege useumman julge
geu etton nuguboda
hengbokhadago mal halsu itge
meil harul sijakhae ne saenggage
nae ipgae misoga memdone
hengbokhe na ottokhe
[Rap 2]
i jichin himdeun haru kkeute
nega ne yope itdan ge
meilharu gomapgo nan himi dwe
yaksokhe ne gyote itgetdago nan an byonhe
sigani jinado nol saranghe nol jikilge
nuga bwado sarangseuroun
nuga bwado nomuna yeppeun
hanahana nomu wanbyokhan
there's an angel in my heart
nunbusige yeppeun olgureun
hessalchorom hwanhan useumeun
bamhaneure balgeun byol gata
there's an angel in my heart
onjebwado sarangseuroun
onje bwado nomuna yeppeun
nuga bwado noneun wanbyokhe
there's an angel in my heart
nunbusige yeppeun olgureun
hessalchorom hwanhan useumeun
byolbodado banjjakbanjjakhe
there's an angel in my heart
=====TRANSLATION=====
credit: Platypiz@youtube
Girl you come to me like a dream
I'll hold onto you like this and never let go
you are so beautiful to me girl
you're my ideal girl and I fell in love with you at first sight
I'm really happy to meet someone like you
My heart is beating like this
Yeah
Whoever sees you will say you're lovely
Whoever sees you will say you're pretty
One by one are perfect
there's an angel in my heart
Your pretty face is blinding my eyes
Your bright smile is just like the sun
Like a shining star in the night sky
there's an angel in my heart
Dream this isn't a dream isn't it?
I feel like I own this world
If time stops right now
I wonder how great it will be
Even if time passes, or even if everything changes
I promise, I'll be by your side
Yeah
Whoever sees you will say you're lovely
Whoever sees you will say you're pretty
One by one are perfect
there's an angel in my heart
Your pretty face is blinding my eyes
Your bright smile is just like the sun
Like a shining star in the night sky
there's an angel in my heart
Day by day passes by
We've grown to look more like each other
I keep falling for you
Just like a scene from a movie
Like those cool main characters
I'll give my life to you
[Rap 1]
I'll always give you my smile
More than anyone else
I'll make you the happiest person
I start everyday while thinking of you
My smile stays still all the same
I'm so happy what should I do?
[Rap 2]
At the end of this tiring day
You will always stay by my side
I'm feeling thankful everyday and you become my power
I promise to stay by your side I won't change
Even if time passes, I love you, I'll protect you
Whoever sees you will say you're lovely
Whoever sees you will say you're pretty
One by one are perfect
there's an angel in my heart
Your pretty face is blinding my eyes
Your bright smile is just like the sun
Like a shining star in the night sky
there's an angel in my heart
You're always lovely
You always look so pretty
Whoever sees you will say you're perfect
there's an angel in my heart
Your pretty face is blinding my eyes
Your bright smile is just like the sun
Like a shining star in the night sky
there's an angel in my heart
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不知道为什么，
每一次听见这首歌，
就觉得自己很幸福。。。
感觉上好像他在对我唱这首歌。。
好幸福~ ^^
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