future

im so worry.

i have a bad feeling that DA is not going to make it for the koreaboo audition. i've been dreaming bout the audition for one whole week after the dateline for submission. Im even worried when i've found out that one of our video is having views problem because the view count is not increasing at all even if the comments are flowing in.

come to think about it, actually there is nothing much to worry about for the reason being that, I have to admit the fact that our video is just not that good.

from a third party perspective, it might just be an OK video, but to me, or even to the judges, it might be crap. i can see alot of flaws in the video, probably because i know the steps in and out, any discrepancy cant run away from my eyes.

second reason, one of the video is just too short, its only 1minute? I suppose the judges will expect at least a 3minutes video to show off talents rather than a one minute video.

third reason, its just too much people in the video. yes we are joining the competition as a team, but the video is just too short, before the judges can recognize the faces of all 6 of us, the video has already ended. In my opinion, it shud be a bit longer so that they can view us in a better light? im sure this definitely contribute to their decision...

fourth reason, this is towards the gee video. Yes i have to admit im posting the video just to try luck, but im 99.99% sure that judges wouldnt like people auditioning using such a song. haha.. the steps are simple, and we were only lip sync-ing to the song, therefore is nothing so impressive about the video. Any dance team with better coordination can do that.

Fifth reason, they have mentioned about the importance of view counts, and damn it, our videos view count stuck there for dont know how long because of the youtube stupid error. its somewhat strange when the like counts are increasing and when you see the influx of comments, but the view count is not increasing. weird huh? anyway, since our view count is pretty low, and view count is one of the factor where they consider in judging, i honestly think that it works against us.

damn. im listing down the reasons why we WILL fail. Am i being too analytical? Am i being too practical?

I dont know, im just trying my best to give the objective view of our entry video.

when im objectively typing out this passage, i cant control my subjective feeling of sadness, stress, worries and the etc feelings im having now. I regret that i didnt solicit for votes and views.. but think about it, its against the rules, thats why i didnt do it at the first place. and think twice, even if you get hell lots of views, how sure are you that its going to bring u any further? No, you cant get a conclusive statement, then why bother doing it?

another reason why i think we cant make it, its because i dreamt of us winning the audition. anything good that appear in my dream had never realize before, except for once regarding my result but nothing else. so... yeah.. i think our dance video will fall under the general rule? of course i do hope that the dream will be an exception and all 6 of us manage to win the competition.

as much as i say i want to win, i dont have the confidence anymore.

our visual maknae asked "how come arirang contest that time you wasnt that worried but now you are overly worried?"
the reason is simple being that, the arirang contest, you can only get money consideration. yes 1000USD is alot, but its just not that important compare to your future! compare to this audition, winning the contest might actually bring you a possible bright future...

anyway, worst come to worst, it might just be a gimmick, a technique to attract more attention for GNA's solo performance when cube have no real intention to seek for new trainees. Of course I hope this is not bcoz they honetly make me worry for the result.

worry.....

im so worry....

that cube will let DA down..