当我开始努力的时候，
别人的脚步开始放慢了。
当我想要放弃的时候，
你却告诉我得继续努力。
并没那么坚强，
责任感告诉我要坚持到底，
内心却开始慢慢松懈。
还能支撑多久， 我不知道。
内心的急躁， 相信应该没人能体会。
开始觉得身边的人无法了解我，
因为他们不明白，
当你可以看见自己的路的尽头时，
你是多么的想要改变那个你不想要看见的结局。
他们只能看见你那莫明其妙的急躁，
飘忽无定的心情，
惹人厌。
当你看着时间慢慢地流逝，
知道自己的时间所剩无几，
你很难控制自己不把一天当成两天来用，
在一切还没结束前，
统统把他给做完。
唯恐到了最后一天，
自己竟然还有什么是还没完成的。
单方面的以为这样就能让自己好过一点，
可以吗?
不然。
也不知道什么时候开始，
觉得自己无论多努力，
却还是停滞不前。
有没有想象过，
当身边的朋友都张开了翅膀，
自由自在的飞翔了，
自己却被遗留在原地?
那感觉，
一点也不好受吧。
很想一起走到终点，
想不到走不下去的人，
竟然是我自己。
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Monday, February 7, 2011
future
im so worry.
i have a bad feeling that DA is not going to make it for the koreaboo audition. i've been dreaming bout the audition for one whole week after the dateline for submission. Im even worried when i've found out that one of our video is having views problem because the view count is not increasing at all even if the comments are flowing in.
come to think about it, actually there is nothing much to worry about for the reason being that, I have to admit the fact that our video is just not that good.
from a third party perspective, it might just be an OK video, but to me, or even to the judges, it might be crap. i can see alot of flaws in the video, probably because i know the steps in and out, any discrepancy cant run away from my eyes.
second reason, one of the video is just too short, its only 1minute? I suppose the judges will expect at least a 3minutes video to show off talents rather than a one minute video.
third reason, its just too much people in the video. yes we are joining the competition as a team, but the video is just too short, before the judges can recognize the faces of all 6 of us, the video has already ended. In my opinion, it shud be a bit longer so that they can view us in a better light? im sure this definitely contribute to their decision...
fourth reason, this is towards the gee video. Yes i have to admit im posting the video just to try luck, but im 99.99% sure that judges wouldnt like people auditioning using such a song. haha.. the steps are simple, and we were only lip sync-ing to the song, therefore is nothing so impressive about the video. Any dance team with better coordination can do that.
Fifth reason, they have mentioned about the importance of view counts, and damn it, our videos view count stuck there for dont know how long because of the youtube stupid error. its somewhat strange when the like counts are increasing and when you see the influx of comments, but the view count is not increasing. weird huh? anyway, since our view count is pretty low, and view count is one of the factor where they consider in judging, i honestly think that it works against us.
damn. im listing down the reasons why we WILL fail. Am i being too analytical? Am i being too practical?
I dont know, im just trying my best to give the objective view of our entry video.
when im objectively typing out this passage, i cant control my subjective feeling of sadness, stress, worries and the etc feelings im having now. I regret that i didnt solicit for votes and views.. but think about it, its against the rules, thats why i didnt do it at the first place. and think twice, even if you get hell lots of views, how sure are you that its going to bring u any further? No, you cant get a conclusive statement, then why bother doing it?
another reason why i think we cant make it, its because i dreamt of us winning the audition. anything good that appear in my dream had never realize before, except for once regarding my result but nothing else. so... yeah.. i think our dance video will fall under the general rule? of course i do hope that the dream will be an exception and all 6 of us manage to win the competition.
as much as i say i want to win, i dont have the confidence anymore.
our visual maknae asked "how come arirang contest that time you wasnt that worried but now you are overly worried?"
the reason is simple being that, the arirang contest, you can only get money consideration. yes 1000USD is alot, but its just not that important compare to your future! compare to this audition, winning the contest might actually bring you a possible bright future...
anyway, worst come to worst, it might just be a gimmick, a technique to attract more attention for GNA's solo performance when cube have no real intention to seek for new trainees. Of course I hope this is not bcoz they honetly make me worry for the result.
worry.....
im so worry....
that cube will let DA down..
i have a bad feeling that DA is not going to make it for the koreaboo audition. i've been dreaming bout the audition for one whole week after the dateline for submission. Im even worried when i've found out that one of our video is having views problem because the view count is not increasing at all even if the comments are flowing in.
come to think about it, actually there is nothing much to worry about for the reason being that, I have to admit the fact that our video is just not that good.
from a third party perspective, it might just be an OK video, but to me, or even to the judges, it might be crap. i can see alot of flaws in the video, probably because i know the steps in and out, any discrepancy cant run away from my eyes.
second reason, one of the video is just too short, its only 1minute? I suppose the judges will expect at least a 3minutes video to show off talents rather than a one minute video.
third reason, its just too much people in the video. yes we are joining the competition as a team, but the video is just too short, before the judges can recognize the faces of all 6 of us, the video has already ended. In my opinion, it shud be a bit longer so that they can view us in a better light? im sure this definitely contribute to their decision...
fourth reason, this is towards the gee video. Yes i have to admit im posting the video just to try luck, but im 99.99% sure that judges wouldnt like people auditioning using such a song. haha.. the steps are simple, and we were only lip sync-ing to the song, therefore is nothing so impressive about the video. Any dance team with better coordination can do that.
Fifth reason, they have mentioned about the importance of view counts, and damn it, our videos view count stuck there for dont know how long because of the youtube stupid error. its somewhat strange when the like counts are increasing and when you see the influx of comments, but the view count is not increasing. weird huh? anyway, since our view count is pretty low, and view count is one of the factor where they consider in judging, i honestly think that it works against us.
damn. im listing down the reasons why we WILL fail. Am i being too analytical? Am i being too practical?
I dont know, im just trying my best to give the objective view of our entry video.
when im objectively typing out this passage, i cant control my subjective feeling of sadness, stress, worries and the etc feelings im having now. I regret that i didnt solicit for votes and views.. but think about it, its against the rules, thats why i didnt do it at the first place. and think twice, even if you get hell lots of views, how sure are you that its going to bring u any further? No, you cant get a conclusive statement, then why bother doing it?
another reason why i think we cant make it, its because i dreamt of us winning the audition. anything good that appear in my dream had never realize before, except for once regarding my result but nothing else. so... yeah.. i think our dance video will fall under the general rule? of course i do hope that the dream will be an exception and all 6 of us manage to win the competition.
as much as i say i want to win, i dont have the confidence anymore.
our visual maknae asked "how come arirang contest that time you wasnt that worried but now you are overly worried?"
the reason is simple being that, the arirang contest, you can only get money consideration. yes 1000USD is alot, but its just not that important compare to your future! compare to this audition, winning the contest might actually bring you a possible bright future...
anyway, worst come to worst, it might just be a gimmick, a technique to attract more attention for GNA's solo performance when cube have no real intention to seek for new trainees. Of course I hope this is not bcoz they honetly make me worry for the result.
worry.....
im so worry....
that cube will let DA down..
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
~幸福之歌~
Teen Top (틴탑) - Angel
=====HANGUL=====
credit: Melon Music + chacha-31@blogspot
Girl 꿈처럼 다가온 널
이렇게 꼭 잡아 놓지 않을 거야
you are so beautiful to me girl
첫 눈에 반했던 내 이상형인 걸
참 다행이야 이런 널 만나서
내 가슴이 이렇게 뛰잖아
Yeah
누가 봐도 사랑스러운
누가 봐도 너무나 예쁜
하나하나 너무 완벽한
there's an angel in my heart
눈부시게 예쁜 얼굴은
햇살처럼 환한 웃음은
밤하늘에 밝은 별 같아
there's an angel in my heart
Dream 꿈은 아니겠죠
이 세상 모든 걸 다 가진 것 같아
참 시간이 이렇게 멈춰버렸으면
얼마나 좋을까
시간이 지나 모두들 변한다 해도
난 약속해 네 곁에 있을게
Yeah
누가 봐도 사랑스러운
누가 봐도 너무나 예쁜
하나하나 너무 완벽한
there's an angel in my heart
눈부시게 예쁜 얼굴은
햇살처럼 환한 웃음은
밤하늘에 밝은 별 같아
there's an angel in my heart
하루하루 지나가면
서로서로 닮아가며
너에게 점점 빠져만 가
영화 속 한 장면처럼
멋진 주인공들처럼
I'll give my life to you
[Rap 1]
언제나 너에게 웃음만 줄게
그 어떤 누구보다
행복하다고 말 할수 있게
매일 하룰 시작해 네 생각에
내 입가에 미소가 맴도네
행복해 나 어떡해
[Rap 2]
이 지친 힘든 하루 끝에
네가 내 옆에 있단 게
매일하루 고맙고 난 힘이 되
약속해 네 곁에 있겠다고 난 안 변해
시간이 지나도 널 사랑해 널 지킬게
누가 봐도 사랑스러운
누가 봐도 너무나 예쁜
하나하나 너무 완벽한
there's an angel in my heart
눈부시게 예쁜 얼굴은
햇살처럼 환한 웃음은
밤하늘에 밝은 별 같아
there's an angel in my heart
언제봐도 사랑스러운
언제 봐도 너무나 예쁜
누가 봐도 너는 완벽해
there's an angel in my heart
눈부시게 예쁜 얼굴은
햇살처럼 환한 웃음은
별보다도 반짝반짝해
there's an angel in my heart
=====ROMANIZATION=====
credit: Chichan-Onew + chacha-31@blogspot
Girl kkumchorom dagaon nol
irotge kkok jaba nochi aneul goya
you are so beautiful to me girl
chot nune banhetdon ne isanghyongin gol
cham dahengiya iron nol mannaso
ne gaseumi irote ttwijanha
Yeah
nuga bwado sarangseuroun
nuga bwado nomuna yeppeun
hanahana nomu wanbyokhan
there's an angel in my heart
nunbusige yeppeun olgureun
hessalchorom hwanhan useumeun
bamhaneure balgeun byol gata
there's an angel in my heart
Dream kkumeun anigetjyo
i sesang modeun gol da gajin got gata
cham sigani irotge momchwo-boryosseumyon
olmana joheulkka
sigani jina modudeul byonhanda hedo
nan yaksokhe ne gyote isseulge
Yeah
nuga bwado sarangseuroun
nuga bwado nomuna yeppeun
hanahana nomu wanbyokhan
there's an angel in my heart
nunbusige yeppeun olgureun
hessalchorom hwanhan useumeun
bamhaneure balgeun byol gata
there's an angel in my heart
haruharu jinagamyon
sorosoro dalmagamyo
noege jomjom ppajyoman ga
yonghwa sok han jangmyonchorom
motjin juin-gongdeulchorom
I'll give my life to you
[Rap 1]
onjena noege useumman julge
geu etton nuguboda
hengbokhadago mal halsu itge
meil harul sijakhae ne saenggage
nae ipgae misoga memdone
hengbokhe na ottokhe
[Rap 2]
i jichin himdeun haru kkeute
nega ne yope itdan ge
meilharu gomapgo nan himi dwe
yaksokhe ne gyote itgetdago nan an byonhe
sigani jinado nol saranghe nol jikilge
nuga bwado sarangseuroun
nuga bwado nomuna yeppeun
hanahana nomu wanbyokhan
there's an angel in my heart
nunbusige yeppeun olgureun
hessalchorom hwanhan useumeun
bamhaneure balgeun byol gata
there's an angel in my heart
onjebwado sarangseuroun
onje bwado nomuna yeppeun
nuga bwado noneun wanbyokhe
there's an angel in my heart
nunbusige yeppeun olgureun
hessalchorom hwanhan useumeun
byolbodado banjjakbanjjakhe
there's an angel in my heart
=====TRANSLATION=====
credit: Platypiz@youtube
Girl you come to me like a dream
I'll hold onto you like this and never let go
you are so beautiful to me girl
you're my ideal girl and I fell in love with you at first sight
I'm really happy to meet someone like you
My heart is beating like this
Yeah
Whoever sees you will say you're lovely
Whoever sees you will say you're pretty
One by one are perfect
there's an angel in my heart
Your pretty face is blinding my eyes
Your bright smile is just like the sun
Like a shining star in the night sky
there's an angel in my heart
Dream this isn't a dream isn't it?
I feel like I own this world
If time stops right now
I wonder how great it will be
Even if time passes, or even if everything changes
I promise, I'll be by your side
Yeah
Whoever sees you will say you're lovely
Whoever sees you will say you're pretty
One by one are perfect
there's an angel in my heart
Your pretty face is blinding my eyes
Your bright smile is just like the sun
Like a shining star in the night sky
there's an angel in my heart
Day by day passes by
We've grown to look more like each other
I keep falling for you
Just like a scene from a movie
Like those cool main characters
I'll give my life to you
[Rap 1]
I'll always give you my smile
More than anyone else
I'll make you the happiest person
I start everyday while thinking of you
My smile stays still all the same
I'm so happy what should I do?
[Rap 2]
At the end of this tiring day
You will always stay by my side
I'm feeling thankful everyday and you become my power
I promise to stay by your side I won't change
Even if time passes, I love you, I'll protect you
Whoever sees you will say you're lovely
Whoever sees you will say you're pretty
One by one are perfect
there's an angel in my heart
Your pretty face is blinding my eyes
Your bright smile is just like the sun
Like a shining star in the night sky
there's an angel in my heart
You're always lovely
You always look so pretty
Whoever sees you will say you're perfect
there's an angel in my heart
Your pretty face is blinding my eyes
Your bright smile is just like the sun
Like a shining star in the night sky
there's an angel in my heart
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不知道为什么，
每一次听见这首歌，
就觉得自己很幸福。。。
感觉上好像他在对我唱这首歌。。
好幸福~ ^^
=====HANGUL=====
credit: Melon Music + chacha-31@blogspot
Girl 꿈처럼 다가온 널
이렇게 꼭 잡아 놓지 않을 거야
you are so beautiful to me girl
첫 눈에 반했던 내 이상형인 걸
참 다행이야 이런 널 만나서
내 가슴이 이렇게 뛰잖아
Yeah
누가 봐도 사랑스러운
누가 봐도 너무나 예쁜
하나하나 너무 완벽한
there's an angel in my heart
눈부시게 예쁜 얼굴은
햇살처럼 환한 웃음은
밤하늘에 밝은 별 같아
there's an angel in my heart
Dream 꿈은 아니겠죠
이 세상 모든 걸 다 가진 것 같아
참 시간이 이렇게 멈춰버렸으면
얼마나 좋을까
시간이 지나 모두들 변한다 해도
난 약속해 네 곁에 있을게
Yeah
누가 봐도 사랑스러운
누가 봐도 너무나 예쁜
하나하나 너무 완벽한
there's an angel in my heart
눈부시게 예쁜 얼굴은
햇살처럼 환한 웃음은
밤하늘에 밝은 별 같아
there's an angel in my heart
하루하루 지나가면
서로서로 닮아가며
너에게 점점 빠져만 가
영화 속 한 장면처럼
멋진 주인공들처럼
I'll give my life to you
[Rap 1]
언제나 너에게 웃음만 줄게
그 어떤 누구보다
행복하다고 말 할수 있게
매일 하룰 시작해 네 생각에
내 입가에 미소가 맴도네
행복해 나 어떡해
[Rap 2]
이 지친 힘든 하루 끝에
네가 내 옆에 있단 게
매일하루 고맙고 난 힘이 되
약속해 네 곁에 있겠다고 난 안 변해
시간이 지나도 널 사랑해 널 지킬게
누가 봐도 사랑스러운
누가 봐도 너무나 예쁜
하나하나 너무 완벽한
there's an angel in my heart
눈부시게 예쁜 얼굴은
햇살처럼 환한 웃음은
밤하늘에 밝은 별 같아
there's an angel in my heart
언제봐도 사랑스러운
언제 봐도 너무나 예쁜
누가 봐도 너는 완벽해
there's an angel in my heart
눈부시게 예쁜 얼굴은
햇살처럼 환한 웃음은
별보다도 반짝반짝해
there's an angel in my heart
=====ROMANIZATION=====
credit: Chichan-Onew + chacha-31@blogspot
Girl kkumchorom dagaon nol
irotge kkok jaba nochi aneul goya
you are so beautiful to me girl
chot nune banhetdon ne isanghyongin gol
cham dahengiya iron nol mannaso
ne gaseumi irote ttwijanha
Yeah
nuga bwado sarangseuroun
nuga bwado nomuna yeppeun
hanahana nomu wanbyokhan
there's an angel in my heart
nunbusige yeppeun olgureun
hessalchorom hwanhan useumeun
bamhaneure balgeun byol gata
there's an angel in my heart
Dream kkumeun anigetjyo
i sesang modeun gol da gajin got gata
cham sigani irotge momchwo-boryosseumyon
olmana joheulkka
sigani jina modudeul byonhanda hedo
nan yaksokhe ne gyote isseulge
Yeah
nuga bwado sarangseuroun
nuga bwado nomuna yeppeun
hanahana nomu wanbyokhan
there's an angel in my heart
nunbusige yeppeun olgureun
hessalchorom hwanhan useumeun
bamhaneure balgeun byol gata
there's an angel in my heart
haruharu jinagamyon
sorosoro dalmagamyo
noege jomjom ppajyoman ga
yonghwa sok han jangmyonchorom
motjin juin-gongdeulchorom
I'll give my life to you
[Rap 1]
onjena noege useumman julge
geu etton nuguboda
hengbokhadago mal halsu itge
meil harul sijakhae ne saenggage
nae ipgae misoga memdone
hengbokhe na ottokhe
[Rap 2]
i jichin himdeun haru kkeute
nega ne yope itdan ge
meilharu gomapgo nan himi dwe
yaksokhe ne gyote itgetdago nan an byonhe
sigani jinado nol saranghe nol jikilge
nuga bwado sarangseuroun
nuga bwado nomuna yeppeun
hanahana nomu wanbyokhan
there's an angel in my heart
nunbusige yeppeun olgureun
hessalchorom hwanhan useumeun
bamhaneure balgeun byol gata
there's an angel in my heart
onjebwado sarangseuroun
onje bwado nomuna yeppeun
nuga bwado noneun wanbyokhe
there's an angel in my heart
nunbusige yeppeun olgureun
hessalchorom hwanhan useumeun
byolbodado banjjakbanjjakhe
there's an angel in my heart
=====TRANSLATION=====
credit: Platypiz@youtube
Girl you come to me like a dream
I'll hold onto you like this and never let go
you are so beautiful to me girl
you're my ideal girl and I fell in love with you at first sight
I'm really happy to meet someone like you
My heart is beating like this
Yeah
Whoever sees you will say you're lovely
Whoever sees you will say you're pretty
One by one are perfect
there's an angel in my heart
Your pretty face is blinding my eyes
Your bright smile is just like the sun
Like a shining star in the night sky
there's an angel in my heart
Dream this isn't a dream isn't it?
I feel like I own this world
If time stops right now
I wonder how great it will be
Even if time passes, or even if everything changes
I promise, I'll be by your side
Yeah
Whoever sees you will say you're lovely
Whoever sees you will say you're pretty
One by one are perfect
there's an angel in my heart
Your pretty face is blinding my eyes
Your bright smile is just like the sun
Like a shining star in the night sky
there's an angel in my heart
Day by day passes by
We've grown to look more like each other
I keep falling for you
Just like a scene from a movie
Like those cool main characters
I'll give my life to you
[Rap 1]
I'll always give you my smile
More than anyone else
I'll make you the happiest person
I start everyday while thinking of you
My smile stays still all the same
I'm so happy what should I do?
[Rap 2]
At the end of this tiring day
You will always stay by my side
I'm feeling thankful everyday and you become my power
I promise to stay by your side I won't change
Even if time passes, I love you, I'll protect you
Whoever sees you will say you're lovely
Whoever sees you will say you're pretty
One by one are perfect
there's an angel in my heart
Your pretty face is blinding my eyes
Your bright smile is just like the sun
Like a shining star in the night sky
there's an angel in my heart
You're always lovely
You always look so pretty
Whoever sees you will say you're perfect
there's an angel in my heart
Your pretty face is blinding my eyes
Your bright smile is just like the sun
Like a shining star in the night sky
there's an angel in my heart
*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*
不知道为什么，
每一次听见这首歌，
就觉得自己很幸福。。。
感觉上好像他在对我唱这首歌。。
好幸福~ ^^
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Bell & Koreaboo: Cube Audition 2011 - Gee (SNSD)
im too lazy to shoot for a new video, might as well just use the old performance of us as entry, since all of us can only dance nicely during performance but not practice. XDDDD
here u go, GEE GEE GEE GEE GEE~
here u go, GEE GEE GEE GEE GEE~
Friday, January 21, 2011
Dawn's Arch New Video!!!
this is the new practice video of Dawn's Arch dancing to Sugarbabe's Get Sexy, a hiphop routine choreographed by Ellim Lee from Kiaro Dance COompany.
I have to say that, is not that good overall, probably because everyone is very tired after 2 hours of practice. Pity to CY who was still sick that time, HAHAHA..
The dance was a bit messy but i think there are still plenty of rooms to improve.
Girls, I just want you all to know that so long as we work hard, nothing is impossible.
Work hard, so that we wont regret not giving out best.
Fighting girls!!!
I have to say that, is not that good overall, probably because everyone is very tired after 2 hours of practice. Pity to CY who was still sick that time, HAHAHA..
The dance was a bit messy but i think there are still plenty of rooms to improve.
Girls, I just want you all to know that so long as we work hard, nothing is impossible.
Work hard, so that we wont regret not giving out best.
Fighting girls!!!
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
梦
那天晚上作了一个梦
梦里的情景
好奇怪
让我不得不开始胡思乱想
在梦里
感觉上都朦朦胧胧的
可是我却清楚记得
在梦里
我被一群学院里的同学追逐
他们说
是老师吩咐他们寻找翘课的人--
也就是我
而那时候的我
脑子里想的只有一个字
跑!
拼命的跑
我告诉我自己
我绝不回头
我不会回去那里了
跑啊。。。 跑。。
累得无法再动了
发现自己已经远远的抛下他们了
躲在一个角落
希望可以喘一口气
再继续逃亡
可没多久
又听见他们打锣般的正在搜寻我
其实大家都是我认识的同学
可是就是有那莫名的恐惧
害怕自己要回去那个我好不容易才逃走的地方
很怕。。
真的很怕。。
怎么办?
没办法了
只能继续逃亡
跑啊...!!
还好
没被他们发现我就在他们的附近。。
可跑没两下子
双腿已经没意识了
一点力气都使不上
像以往那样
躲!
胡乱进了一间空荡荡的鞋店
店主用好奇怪的眼神注视着我
我说
"拜托老板，让我躲一会儿就好了"
他没说什么
就自行关店，走了。。
可是他并没有把门锁上
可能是想让我待会儿自己离开
躲在里面没多久
听见外面有好几把熟悉的声音说
"KH 应该就在这附近吧。大家快把他给抓回去。。。"
我一个人躲在角落
恐惧感围绕着我
当我听见他们开始要每一间店进去搜寻的时候
我再也受不了了
我不想再被捆绑
即使豁出去
我也一定要摆脱他们。。
我不顾一切
夺门而出
他们看见我
都愣了一下
并没有立刻追拿我
跑!
朦朦胧胧中
我的直觉告诉我
只要我逃去眼前的那个楼梯
我就安全了
刚开始搂梯和一般的并没什么两样
可是不知道什么时候
楼梯竟然变成那90度爬梯
每一步向上爬都十分吃力
好害怕
爬了很久怎么就是没有尽头呢..?
往下望，
发现一个人影也没有，
只有我一个人吊着在那儿
那时候的我
剩下的就只有恐惧感
还有那不肯放弃的硬骨头性格
明明知道
只要自己一个不小心
掉下去的
就是万丈悬崖
可是内心却有一把声音
一遍又一遍的告诉自己
只要再努力一点
再努力往上爬
那里就安全了
好累
好怕
好孤单
好不容易
终于看到终点了。。
好高兴
只差那么一步
就那么一步
我就安全了
可是
不管我多么用力的爬
我就是爬不上去
急得我就来哭了
不知道什么时候
我身上竟然带着一团厕纸
厕纸?
这是什么梦啊
我那么迫切了
可那团厕纸感觉好像很沉重
重得我爬不上那最后一格
是不是应该把它丢掉呢?
不可以!
潜意识告诉我
再怎么重
我一定要把自己
还有那团莫明其妙的厕纸
一起爬上那安全地带
好重。。。
。
。
。
。
。
。
梦醒了
到底我
和那团莫明其妙的厕纸
有没有爬上那安全地带?
我也不知道。。。
正在读我部落格的你，
可以告诉我答案吗?
我真的很想知道。。
梦里的情景
好奇怪
让我不得不开始胡思乱想
在梦里
感觉上都朦朦胧胧的
可是我却清楚记得
在梦里
我被一群学院里的同学追逐
他们说
是老师吩咐他们寻找翘课的人--
也就是我
而那时候的我
脑子里想的只有一个字
跑!
拼命的跑
我告诉我自己
我绝不回头
我不会回去那里了
跑啊。。。 跑。。
累得无法再动了
发现自己已经远远的抛下他们了
躲在一个角落
希望可以喘一口气
再继续逃亡
可没多久
又听见他们打锣般的正在搜寻我
其实大家都是我认识的同学
可是就是有那莫名的恐惧
害怕自己要回去那个我好不容易才逃走的地方
很怕。。
真的很怕。。
怎么办?
没办法了
只能继续逃亡
跑啊...!!
还好
没被他们发现我就在他们的附近。。
可跑没两下子
双腿已经没意识了
一点力气都使不上
像以往那样
躲!
胡乱进了一间空荡荡的鞋店
店主用好奇怪的眼神注视着我
我说
"拜托老板，让我躲一会儿就好了"
他没说什么
就自行关店，走了。。
可是他并没有把门锁上
可能是想让我待会儿自己离开
躲在里面没多久
听见外面有好几把熟悉的声音说
"KH 应该就在这附近吧。大家快把他给抓回去。。。"
我一个人躲在角落
恐惧感围绕着我
当我听见他们开始要每一间店进去搜寻的时候
我再也受不了了
我不想再被捆绑
即使豁出去
我也一定要摆脱他们。。
我不顾一切
夺门而出
他们看见我
都愣了一下
并没有立刻追拿我
跑!
朦朦胧胧中
我的直觉告诉我
只要我逃去眼前的那个楼梯
我就安全了
刚开始搂梯和一般的并没什么两样
可是不知道什么时候
楼梯竟然变成那90度爬梯
每一步向上爬都十分吃力
好害怕
爬了很久怎么就是没有尽头呢..?
往下望，
发现一个人影也没有，
只有我一个人吊着在那儿
那时候的我
剩下的就只有恐惧感
还有那不肯放弃的硬骨头性格
明明知道
只要自己一个不小心
掉下去的
就是万丈悬崖
可是内心却有一把声音
一遍又一遍的告诉自己
只要再努力一点
再努力往上爬
那里就安全了
好累
好怕
好孤单
好不容易
终于看到终点了。。
好高兴
只差那么一步
就那么一步
我就安全了
可是
不管我多么用力的爬
我就是爬不上去
急得我就来哭了
不知道什么时候
我身上竟然带着一团厕纸
厕纸?
这是什么梦啊
我那么迫切了
可那团厕纸感觉好像很沉重
重得我爬不上那最后一格
是不是应该把它丢掉呢?
不可以!
潜意识告诉我
再怎么重
我一定要把自己
还有那团莫明其妙的厕纸
一起爬上那安全地带
好重。。。
。
。
。
。
。
。
梦醒了
到底我
和那团莫明其妙的厕纸
有没有爬上那安全地带?
我也不知道。。。
正在读我部落格的你，
可以告诉我答案吗?
我真的很想知道。。
Thursday, January 6, 2011
emotional
刚看了 CY 的 不落格
很感触 泪不停
I LOVE YOU GUYS.
真的
CY 说DA这条路会走多久我不知道
如果可以，
我希望是一辈子
其实，
很多事情我不知道要如何告诉你们。。。
我可以待在 DA 的日子
恐怕很快就没了
毕业后
我将会投入社会
成为别人羡慕的律师
可是我不会羡慕
因为
律师首要规矩
不许参与任何有损律师名誉的活动
包括任何娱乐性质的活动
也就是说
我必须放弃所有。。
虽然我时常骂你们这个那个，
我真的放不下你们。
我不想就这样离开。。
我一直以来的梦想是可以和你们登上更高的舞台。。
发明星梦? 我不知道。。
我只是想和DA一直站在舞台上继续表演，
不管未来的日子有多难熬
我相信只要可以和大家在一起做喜欢的事情
我一定不会后悔
曾经我也有过这样的梦想
可是得到的是背叛
翅膀受伤了 无法飞翔
只能自己慢慢疗伤
我很感激上天再赐给我
现有的小天使 C, J, CY, L, ST, CL, YM
还有一直对不争气的我不离不弃的 onni
我慢慢感受到一点温暖
可是我所剩的时间也不多了
2011 年的开始
我疯狂寻找出路
找不着
家里反对
我想出走
像 kahi 一样
远走它乡 寻找梦想
或许我想太多了
可是现实逼人
我无法不低头
或许我疯癫
我疯狂寻找机会
希望 DA 和自己可以找到更好的未来
现在的我真的希望 DA 可以一起被某公司录取
做dancer也好
做trainee也好
做什么都好
只要大家一起努力
因为
我总觉得
虽然我们大家都不一样
可是只要大家在一起
什么问题都可以解决。。
很自私
我自己的问题竟然牵涉整个 DA 的未来
并不清楚大家想要的是什么
却硬是要把你们推向那个方向
我并不是想当大明星
我只想和大家一起站在台上
尽情的跳舞
我只怕以后我老了 就再也没有那个飞翔的勇气
无法接受自己写这么一篇小小的文章
竟然哭了两个小时
看来我这个队长真的很没用。。
很感触 泪不停
I LOVE YOU GUYS.
真的
CY 说DA这条路会走多久我不知道
如果可以，
我希望是一辈子
其实，
很多事情我不知道要如何告诉你们。。。
我可以待在 DA 的日子
恐怕很快就没了
毕业后
我将会投入社会
成为别人羡慕的律师
可是我不会羡慕
因为
律师首要规矩
不许参与任何有损律师名誉的活动
包括任何娱乐性质的活动
也就是说
我必须放弃所有。。
虽然我时常骂你们这个那个，
我真的放不下你们。
我不想就这样离开。。
我一直以来的梦想是可以和你们登上更高的舞台。。
发明星梦? 我不知道。。
我只是想和DA一直站在舞台上继续表演，
不管未来的日子有多难熬
我相信只要可以和大家在一起做喜欢的事情
我一定不会后悔
曾经我也有过这样的梦想
可是得到的是背叛
翅膀受伤了 无法飞翔
只能自己慢慢疗伤
我很感激上天再赐给我
现有的小天使 C, J, CY, L, ST, CL, YM
还有一直对不争气的我不离不弃的 onni
我慢慢感受到一点温暖
可是我所剩的时间也不多了
2011 年的开始
我疯狂寻找出路
找不着
家里反对
我想出走
像 kahi 一样
远走它乡 寻找梦想
或许我想太多了
可是现实逼人
我无法不低头
或许我疯癫
我疯狂寻找机会
希望 DA 和自己可以找到更好的未来
现在的我真的希望 DA 可以一起被某公司录取
做dancer也好
做trainee也好
做什么都好
只要大家一起努力
因为
我总觉得
虽然我们大家都不一样
可是只要大家在一起
什么问题都可以解决。。
很自私
我自己的问题竟然牵涉整个 DA 的未来
并不清楚大家想要的是什么
却硬是要把你们推向那个方向
我并不是想当大明星
我只想和大家一起站在台上
尽情的跳舞
我只怕以后我老了 就再也没有那个飞翔的勇气
无法接受自己写这么一篇小小的文章
竟然哭了两个小时
看来我这个队长真的很没用。。
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