freaking busy and freaking stress

yes, i dunno y am i blogging here when i was relly relly busy.

*rant*

last whole week was busy doing that whole god damn research thingy which relly drive me to insanity. wtf, a 2500 words essay is not tat easy to write.
what kid of legal research is that?? GOD..
the problem is not that 2500 words is alot, but is too LITTLE.
my goodness.
my first draft came out to be 4000++ words, if i relly pass this up it will definitely be a suicide attempt. univeristy of london will fail me retrospectively and prospectively. (quoting my lecturer mr amerjit)
i wasted like sooooooooooo many hours sitting in front of the computer just to edit, edit, edit and freaking edit the essay again. fuck!
i sat in front of the pc for the one whole week, from morning 9am until another morning 3am. which is CRAZY.
my eye soar thru out the whole week. damn u research essay.
if the uni relly fail me for my essay imma jump off from the building.
i read alot of articles in order to create that piece of essay, so plssss for god sake dont fail me...!
imagine one article of mine consist of 78 pages, and i read more than 5 articles.
pity my eyeball.

*rant*

i relly beh tahan, thru out the whole week been dreaming that either i fail the research paper, or that i cant finish the research paper, or that i have finished the paper but end up no time for my studies, or that i fail my other subject.

damn

im freaking stress.

and now revision class starts, i have no time for myself
there are so much to read but so little time.
im relly relly worry that i cant get thru the exam and freaking get a 2-1 for myself to save my life.

geezzz.. i just wanna slap myself.
probably no one gonna understand wtf im writting here.

and u know what, my only enjoyment become not my enjoyment anymore.
my revision timetable freaking used up all my dancing time which make me cannot go practice for 2months.
damn u ATC.

the amount of student in revision class + the revision table + exam stress + legal research stress + jae-ness stress + ......

all this stress relly make me suffocate, i can hardly breathe.
atc, why u put so many ppl in one class?
u crazy ka?
the classroom is so freaking small and u put 160 ppl inside?
the whole building gonna collapse soon when u put 700++ in the building at the same time.
even the freaking car park oso full all the time and i have to queue for half an hour just to PAY the freaking car park fee.

everything is just crazy!!!@$@
GAHHHHHHH!!@#@$@

*rant*

and those retarded gang tat sit behind tat still freaking talk shit bout me.
u all shud go and fly kite,
and freaking get a life for yrself pls.

yes, im freaking stuck up.
sue me!

emo

im freaking emo

shit.

Chinese New Year HUH...??

something is going seriously wrong to me in 2010..
very wrong..

so..
i have a few pursuers at the same time...
it may not be ABNORMAL to have someone going after you,
BUT
it is freaking weird
COZ
all of them are not CHINESE..!!
duhhhh..
and they all happen to come after me at the same time..
during CNY,
within one week!!

GOSH~
sumthing must be relly wrong..
and it happened during CNY summore.. CNY!!
imagine ppl asking u out for dinner during CNY!!!

WEIRD dou bei..

so..
one of them is MALAY and another one is INDIAN..
gosh..
yea, u can call me racist..
I AM RACIST~
geeezzz..
do i look like im interested in inter-racial relationship?
NO, i dont.

ok, i find this very mean
but tat's just me and all i can be is just me, I, myself.

the malay guy get to know me through facebook
yeah u will probably be asking why did i add him in the first place,
and
yes, im freaking regret now
i added him bcoz my frens added him too, so i thought we have met b4 or etc etc..
he even added me in msn..
and im those kind of ppl tat is not in the habit of rejecting "known" ppl..
we didnt talk until last 2 days when he started to chat with me through facebook
at first he was just asking bout my plan for CNY,
then he started to ask me out saying tat he wanna ask me out for dinner..
i was like =________=' wad?
since i dun even remember anything bout him of course i will say NO to him,
his reply was tat i shudnt get him wrong coz he just wanna make new frens.
Ok, but im still not gonna go out wif a stranger .__________.
the next day,
he saw me on9 in msn
the he said this "hey, its me, the guy tat asked u out yday but u rejected me.. haha.."
duhhh.. wad am i suppose to reply?
then he said "how am i suppose to ask a cute girl like u for a date? i've been single for so long..."
jesus christ! @___@

i cant think of anyway to reply him,
so the simplest way is to IGNORE and continue my AOE game.

NIGHTMARE!

and another indian guy... OMG.. this is the crappiest thing i've ever met.
i feel like banging myself to the wall.
he used to be my classmate since Alevel, but he failed last year and he is resitting the exam..
so we know each other for 4 years edi..

lately he has been acting weird towards me,
but i tot maybe im just a lil bit sensitive..
he has been chatting wif me about randon stuff through facebook chat
so i tot probably he wanna get some notes from me..
but i never see him asking bout notes, usually he will just ask "wad r u doing now..?"

LAME.

one fine day, he start flirting wif me..
GOSH.
start talking bout gals to me,
saying that im the type that he is looking for
and
i have a hot body and he likes to see me wearing mini skirt? (WTF~ )
this sound so perverted...
he said he likes gals wif some "flesh"..
he said he likes to see me dress sexily...( wtf.. i only wear t-shirt+jeans to college ok?)
and alot other stuff which i cant remember and i dun wanna remember..
i almost faint when he start typing this kind of stuff..
is so OBSCENE...

i have no idea how to reply him, is freaking awkward kind of situation..
duhhhh..
so i just said im a gud gal, so dun flirt wif me la..
but i tink this in a way "provoked" him
he went even further to say tat i look like a typical bad gal tat is his type..
Grrr~ wtf is wrong wif these ppl..
he keep asking me wats the criteria to be my bf so tat he can be one...
i was like wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf~ @_@
he keep emphasising that he is very strong and he can definitely fit to be my bf..
DUHHHH!!!
LOOK AT JAY, he is my only boy and u r in no way better than him!
cis!

I've oledi put in my fb + msn for the past few weeks, indicating that I have someone in my mind, my cutie Jay..
are they blind or sumthing huh?
wtf~

then keep asking me "so how? wanna go out wif me? can i date you?"

uhhhh.. they relly get on my nerve..

then out of a sudden send me msg "gong xi fa cai hottie..! wanna go out?"

!@$#%$^%^&%@!#!@#@$#@$#$#@$@#!$!@#%$%^$^%&%^&

and the most ridiculous part that i forgot to mention in the first place is that HE HAS A GF! wtf.. and his GF is my classmate!
GOSH.. wad on earth is wrong wif this ppl?!
i told him tat his gf will be mad if she knws wad he did,
he said IS OK.. both of u oso equally hot, i like both equally..

t(t-.-t) go 撞墙 la!

then keep saying, "see u 2moro in college"
this is very scary coz god knows wad is he going to do to me when he sees me.
im thinking whether he stalk me or sumthing since he always see me in class and library yet i din notice bout his existence at all.

and all this happens only after i start posting stuff bout Jay in fb and msn,
this is the my boy's special effect huh?


i need to pray pray at temple,
alot of "broken" 桃花 this year...

background music *somebody save me*

him

He is...

a not-so-good-looking guy,

with small eye,

fair skin,

pink lips,

short hair,

great body,

but too bad,

he is only 170cm,

and

he has a bad boy look,

with both ears pierced,

very naughty indeed.

but tats ok,

i just like the way he is.

no,

tis is sumthing more than LIKE,

i guess.

love it when he is bboying wif his crew,

love it whenever he smiles,

love everything bout him...

tats him, working in a tyre shop in US,

i wonder when he is going to come back..

i just wan him back,

i miss him

alot

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2pm charity night performance [31012010]

We decided to join this charity performance atthe very last minute...
2 weeks before the actual event only we made up our mind to join the event.
the worst thing is, we only have one day to practice, which means only 2 hours since everyone will be either busy working or attending class..

as usual, we performed ITTNW and another new song remix MUZIK + dance break + Because of you (aka BOU)

ITTNW was ok.. better than the last performance.. but still.. not good enuff.
need to clean up the steps during next class and there are still some parts tat are @!#$@%$#%$#^$%^

NO video... so kenot post here.. >.<

as for MUZIK + dance break + BOU...



it was a BIG FAILURE... T____T
we only manage to practice for 4 hours.. and tats the best we can do.. i dont blame them.. i blame myself for making hell lots of mistakes during the dance..
sigh~

i was freaking sad after the performance.. =(

its ok.. we will do better nex time.

here you go, picture sharing time.

chris preparing herself



cheeyeng preparing herself too



jess:" somebody help....T___T"



we are the only 2 that gao dim everything first~ LOL



"AFTER SCHOOL-ism"

christy keep asking us to do the intro pose... only lance follow..
poor freezee.. too sad to smile.. =(



ok, christy insist us to do it.. so we do the hand pose thingy ler.. >.<





eh eh eh, who's the guy that buat kacau there?



punnishment!



our beloved frequency group!

PENANG COUNTDOWN [12312009]

uhh, i feel like my blog is just like my name.. so COLD..
i feel no life at all reading this blog.

ok, so here's the updates of what DA had been busy with in the past 2 months.

one by one.

PENANG COUNTDOWN EVENT 31122009

the whole trip was freaking tiring but satisfying.
tiring because we had to trave all the way up north to penang just for the event.
imagine sitting in the bus for 5 hours. OUCH~

fooling in the bus on the way to penang.



jess and i were the only 2 fools that did not sleep though out the 5hrs journey. CRAZY PPL!




The hotel that organiser allocated us was the Gurney Hotel right in front of the sea.. ohh.. cun-nya~

DA busy snapping pics and camwhoring at the hotel lobby while our dearest manager, Jasmine busy checking in for us. I am a fail leader that huuhaa-ing with the gang.. =.='

grp pic at the hotel lobby




lance and ????



2 siao ppl acting



gansterism LOL!!



enuff of fooling, next scene, rehearsal! @ padang esplanade 2pm-5pm 30122009
it was freaking hot tat time! FREAKING HOT! we all feel like being trapped in an oven.. but overall the rehearsal was quite ok, just tat some ppl change my choreography unintentionally.. =_____=
is ok. i have to say this coz i cant say is not ok. LOL~

no picture of rehearsal coz no one has got the time to take pic.. LOL~ only pics of after rehearsal..

we are H.O.T~ lmao..



grp pics with progression + SP aka frequency crew + sjmsia



grp pics take 2 PDS + sjmsia



caught on camera!





the overall performance was not tat great, i did a couple of mistakes..
the worst thing is, my fan spoilt half way dancing.. T___T
disastrous..



After performance grp pic!
pic taken immediately after finish the dance.. ALOT OF ppl surrounding us.. swt..



pics taken at mysj booth



pics taken in front of the dunno wad building.. LOL








RANDOM PICS taken in penang

celebrating after the event ^^
yum yum~




one of my favourite pic.. taken after dinner at new gurney drive... some random shopping complex wif beautiful deco.. too bad cant see my face, but i still like it.



cheeyeng sleeping pic.. LOL





freezee and cheeyeng



girls generation? nahhh.. we're not.. just posing only..

~Dawn's Arch Nitez~

22-12-2009 (Tuesday) @ Korea Plaza

Our first performance of the year 2009..!! We performed 2 songs, i.e. genie remix and ITTNW. After we've been practising for so long, finally we have the chance to perform ITTNW. As for genie remix, in fact we have only practised for 3 times.. =.=' total practice hour less than 2 hours... The 6 of us who performed genie are certainly SICKO.. I still can't believe that we have the guts to stand on stage for a dance we practice so "much".. duh~

Here's the video.. Please be reminded NOT to take this dance too seriously, this is meant to be a funny dance.. >.< and this is certainly the weirdest dance ever in my life..



FUNNY?

Anyway, the performances were exciting. A lil bit dissapointed coz we didn't get any prize from the organiser (but i certainly think we did better than other team.. duh~) nevertheless, all of us were so excited and got so HIGH, can see it from Estee where she almost strip on the stage during genie.. XD lmao.

As for ITTNW, it was not tat good in my opinion, i will give 5 out of 10. >.< coz we did alot of mistakes and the stage was too small to accomodate 9 of us. Most importantly, we didn't get to rehearse before the performance. The necklace that Onni gave us keep hitting my face when i dance.. *pain!* and my solo part was like..... so fierce... they said i dance like gangster.. *swt*

Here's the video. pls don't bash us ok? i know we aint that good. >.<



(credits to mysjadmin a.k.a karen)

the only part i like is the last part where all of us said "kamsa hamnida".. lmao~

Anyway, overall it was fun and i believe that all of the Dawn's Arch member now gain more confidence in their own dancing, which is obviously a good thing. >.<
I hope Onni can find more performances for us so that I can send the kids on stage more often to gain more experience.

More pics from the event..!

HANBOK SESSION before show down...!!





(from left: mum, kiddo, dad.....)



random picture b4 showdown







after performance: pic taken with another performing grp "sapphire pear"







finally, our very own DA grp pic!



The one and the only... Dawn's Arch!!