emotional

刚看了 CY 的 不落格
很感触 泪不停

I LOVE YOU GUYS.

真的
CY 说DA这条路会走多久我不知道

如果可以，
我希望是一辈子


其实，
很多事情我不知道要如何告诉你们。。。

我可以待在 DA 的日子
恐怕很快就没了
毕业后
我将会投入社会
成为别人羡慕的律师
可是我不会羡慕
因为
律师首要规矩
不许参与任何有损律师名誉的活动
包括任何娱乐性质的活动

也就是说
我必须放弃所有。。


虽然我时常骂你们这个那个，
我真的放不下你们。
我不想就这样离开。。

我一直以来的梦想是可以和你们登上更高的舞台。。

发明星梦? 我不知道。。

我只是想和DA一直站在舞台上继续表演，
不管未来的日子有多难熬
我相信只要可以和大家在一起做喜欢的事情
我一定不会后悔


曾经我也有过这样的梦想
可是得到的是背叛
翅膀受伤了 无法飞翔
只能自己慢慢疗伤

我很感激上天再赐给我
现有的小天使 C, J, CY, L, ST, CL, YM
还有一直对不争气的我不离不弃的 onni

我慢慢感受到一点温暖
可是我所剩的时间也不多了


2011 年的开始
我疯狂寻找出路
找不着
家里反对
我想出走
像 kahi 一样
远走它乡 寻找梦想

或许我想太多了
可是现实逼人
我无法不低头

或许我疯癫
我疯狂寻找机会
希望 DA 和自己可以找到更好的未来

现在的我真的希望 DA 可以一起被某公司录取
做dancer也好
做trainee也好
做什么都好
只要大家一起努力

因为
我总觉得
虽然我们大家都不一样
可是只要大家在一起
什么问题都可以解决。。


很自私
我自己的问题竟然牵涉整个 DA 的未来
并不清楚大家想要的是什么
却硬是要把你们推向那个方向


我并不是想当大明星
我只想和大家一起站在台上
尽情的跳舞


我只怕以后我老了 就再也没有那个飞翔的勇气


无法接受自己写这么一篇小小的文章
竟然哭了两个小时
看来我这个队长真的很没用。。

result

I've got my result last few weeks. Not bad thou. >.<
I didnt expect to get that result, but I'm definitely happy to see that appear in my result slip which I just got it from ATC yesterday.

Well, I know some of these people out there might think that I don't deserve this result because they always think I'm beneath them.

And I say "NAH!"

Come on, my result has got nothing to do with your result. The fact that i got better than your result doesnt mean I PULL YOU DOWN. Stupid. Dindnt anyone teach you not to compare and compete with others but yourselve?

Grow up and be a MAN.

You see, I didnt bribe the BOARD OF EXAMNIERS and i didnt beg them to give me this result. You think I'm that freaking rich? You think I'm that freaking tak tau malu like u?

If you think you deserve better result, you can go ahead writtng to University of London to coplain about their decision, but you don't need to COMPLAIN MY RESULT SO THAT YOU CAN GET A BETTER RESULT.

wtf man, get a life.

I get utterly disgusted by the fact that you call straight up to the principal complaining my result once you got to know that I got second class upper.

You see, I dont like calling others loser, but you are an exception, LOSER.

Mr. Loser, you are 22 and old enough to THINK before you act. Now I see that Im wrong cause you dont even have the brain to think before you act. A quote from insults.net which describe you perfectly, "you are a living proof that manure can sprout legs and walk"

As law student, at least you must read the regulation book and notes written by the university, and obviously you didnt.

What? You can't read? Nvm, lemme tell you here.

By virtue of Schedule D para 4 of the Regulations 2009-2010 (page 25)

for schemes A and B, the class of degree awarded is determined on the basis of the student's performance in all non intermediate/first year subjects. The student's aggregate mark is also taken into account

Para 7 of Schedule D also further stated that

To obtain a degree with a given class of honours a student will normally be required to achiese passes in at least half of the subjects at or above that class and to achiese an aggregate mark at or above that class, but the Board of Examiners will take into account a student's overall performance

MARK RANGE - CLASS
>70 - 1st class honours
60 to 69 - 2nd class honours (upper division)
50 to 59 - 2nd class honours (lower division)
45 to 49 - 3rd class honours
40 to 44 - Pass
30 to 39 - Fail
0 to 29 - Fail (serious Fail)

Can you see that Mr.Loser?

For your information, all my marks are above 55. Unlike you, I have got no third class marks nor a bare pass marks in any single subject. How dare you talk crap about my result. The board of examiners will take into account your OVERALL PERFORMANCE, faham tak?

Still tak puas hati? Nvm.


Para 10 of general regulations in Regulation 2009-2010 (page 36)

10.3 Appeals against the result of examinations MAY NOT BE MADE on academic grounds. The university will consider representations concerning examination results made on the gounds of administrative error or where there is concern that the examination may not have been conducted in accordance with the relevant instructions and/or regulations.... Representatios must state the grounds on which the appeal is made and provide evidence to support it...

Tell me, on what gorunds that you want to appeal against the decision of your award? I didnt see any administrative error, what evidence you gonna provide as a ground of appeal? Are you going to give evidence like "bcoz this gal XXX can get second upper honours, that's why I should get too"?

bullshit.

Furthermore, look at page 54 of the student handbook 2009-2010,

Before making a representation against your result, it is important for you to be aware that you can only make a representation on administrative grounds. Representation cannot be considered on academic grounds, as EACH SCRIPT IS MARKED INDEPENDENTLY BY 2 EXAMINERS and THE CONFIRED RESULTS IS THE DETERMINED AT AN EXAMINATION BOARD MEETING.

The decision of the Board is final.

Therefore if you make a representation your script will not be re-examined or re-marked by the examiners.

see that?

if you still dont, I HAVE MORE.

Refer to the notes in notification of Results session 2009-2010,

The classification for each candidate os determined not only on the basis of the grades or marks awarded to the candidate in the individual elements of the examination, but also on the assessment by the examiners of the overall performance of the candidate.

various factors may be taken into account in arriving atthe final result, such a the distribution of the marks awarded to the candidate over the various elements, the strength or weakness shown in certain elements in relation to that in other elements, and any special difficulties known to have been experienced by the candidate at the time of the examination (e.g. illness)

Dont believe? check this out.

http://www.londoninternational.ac.uk/current_students/general_resources/exams/results_check.shtml

You should be aware of the following information:

Each script/ assignment/ dissertation or piece of course-work is marked by two Examiners working independently who subsequently agree a final mark.
Your confirmed result is determined at a Board meeting at which all Examiners are represented including External Examiners from other Universities who have a specific responsibility to ensure parity of standards.
If you have submitted evidence relating to problems which affected your performance at the examination/s, for example a medical report/certificate, this will have been presented to the Board of Examiners and taken into consideration by the Board in determining your results.
Please note: there is no provision in the University Regulations for the consideration of an appeal on academic grounds; in all cases, the decision of the Board of Examiners is final.

Still wanna talk shit bout my result and appeal to London?

Go ahead, but make sure you read this page first.

http://www.londoninternational.ac.uk/current_students/general_resources/exams/admin_check.shtml

There is no provision in the Regulations for the consideration of an appeal on academic grounds; the decision of the Board of Examiners is final.
All results are checked by the Student Assessment Office to ensure that the marks awarded by the Examiners are correctly allocated to the individual student record.

I honestly think that University of London who have experience for 109 years will NOT make such a big mistake in awarding me a second upper and error in awarding you a lesser degree. Even if one examiner made a mistake, do you think the WHOLE BOARD OF EXAMINERS made a mistake?

In your dream la.

In any event you think I did bribe them, I belive you can bribe them too in order to get a better award since you are that freaking rich.

Conclusion?

I DESERVE THE RESULT!!!

Please dont ever think of challenging me again, cause you simply cant beat me in anyway Mr. Loser!!

"SAVE" la. (dont get it? translate to cantonese, you will get it)

What makes you think that you are good enough to challenge me?

I skip class, sleep in the class, never pass up assignments, party alot, busy wif competition, but ALL THESE WILL NOT MAKE YOU BETTER THAN ME, MR. LOSER!

You don't need to go around telling everyone that WKH got a second upper but you've only got a second lower and you deserve second upper. I HAVE ENOUGH OF PUBLISITY AND I DONT NEED MORE!

Again i repeat, this message is only intended to “someone and a special one” who is doing that kind of cheapskate thing. That person will know who am i talking about. I hope you can GROW UP and BE A MAN, THINK before you ACT.

If i’m hearing some vulgar words from you after reading this article, means you’re hurt. It surely didn’t beat the purpose of me writing this blog then. You think i care? NAH.

Don’t try to screw me because you can’t. Thank you.

the wtf model industry

u will know what shit im gonna write here the moment u see the title.
yes, the WTF MODEL industry.

all i can say is, nowadays even a duck can be a model.
which is why i call them the WTF model industry.

i thought the requirement for model is pretty strict, but looks like it the term model is now being defined very loosely..

i thought model suppose to be tall, somewhat 170cm min for girls and 180 for guys.
I thought model suppose to have good figure, yeah u know.. the S shape thingy for girl and the V shape thingy for guy.
I thought model suppose to have pretty face or macho look.

look at those "model" around us nowadays.
even chickens and ducks can call themselve model so long as they are skinny.
most of them dont even have pretty face and they dont even come near to the minimum height requirement, yet they call themselve model?

maybe i hv watched too much of ANTM, i just simply couldnt accept this kind of MODEL.

and what pissed me off more is that, i saw alot of ppl in facebook group which provide freelance job, they are actually hiring these kind of MODELS to be escort girl? and wad "provide overnight service"?
what shit is this?
why not u just straight away said u r guai gong and u need hooker?

lemme show u an example of VACANY that i saw in some random job provider page.

We are currently looking and hiring for girls to escort on sugar daddy to various functions..
Training, Hostel and Transportation will be provided...

Currently we are running on selection n screening of *exclusive escort girls*.. Whoever that will be chosen to enrol as exclusive escort girl will be enjoying pay from Rm18k - Rm135k per month..(strictly no bullshitting)..
There will be only 4 vacancies open for exclusive escort girls..

Others that are not be chosen, will be enrolled to be normal escort girls..Salary ranging from Rm4k - Rm18k

Exclusive escort girls
Race: whatever race
Height: at least 163cm
Weight: not more than 60kg
Vital statistics: Minimum C,23-26,Minimum 33
Other: Posseses good attitude

Normal escort girls
Race: Whatever race will do
Height,weight,vital statistics or watever: doesn't matter as long as it is nice, looks fit and pretty according to your scale..

Male escort vacancy is available now too..

Contact us now at (email) XXXXX@live.com / XXXX@live.com (msn) XXXX@live.com / XXXXX@live.com

ok, this is pretty obvious that they r not hiring model, but i saw some which have the same content, they put their title as hiring "MODEL FOR DINNER JOB".
but they need model that provide overnight service.

what shit is that?
and just click on the person who post this thing up, is a SHE. not guai gong, but guai po, where her display pic is half naked + seeing half of her boobs. =.='

what on earth is wrong with these ppl?
model cant earn much so they wanna tukar profession to become hooker?

lemme show u another one.

TITLE: model for KTV/dinner/Escort

tis is an events co-ordinating agency, looking for high quality models for dinner jobs.
models requirements:


- sweet n pretty looking, able to communicate well.
- slim n good body shape
- able to drink a bit
- can work with dicipline.

jobs no hanky panky.
payment wll be rm 500 n above for per appearance.just a DINNER
grooming courses will be provided to fresh models.

please send your profile to XXXX.hotmaill.com if you're interested. title put DINNER if you can work for dinner job,

put ON if you can work for overnight job(3k-5k). pictures pls mms to 01265177XX. we will reply you asap if you're choosen for futher interview. details will be included in the mail.

thanks
Regards,
XXXXXXX event

wtf is an overnight job? why dont they just state "HOOKER for dinner/ktv/escort"?

honestly i have high respect for models who are really models.
i like models although im not one of them, coz i know their job is ntg easy compare to other profession but somehow the term model is being misused/abused.
just take a look around u, u will find alot of random girls calling themselve model when they poses no model quality at all.
and looking at those "JOB PROVIDER" for model, they are the major contributor to the "WTF MODEL INDUSTRY".

what i can say is, nowadays really 世风日下 道德沦亡.
and u know what, ALL OF THEM ARE FREAKING CHINESE girls.
this is why i always said chinese youngster nowadays have no idea what is self discipline and they have no morality in themselve.
dont bash me, im oso a chinese, obviously.

enough said, i might not be able to stop @!#$%^&%$# here if i dont stop now.

letter to...

dear pretty boy,

you probably have no idea how much you upset my life,
but hey,
it actually has got nothing to do with you,
just that you remind me of him.

which part of you remind me of him?
the same flirty words coming from y'all..

the difference between y'all?
you are a free man but he's not..

i must admit,
hmmm.. you're relly sweet..
and you're relly nice..

but hey,
I don't play with fire,
coz I will end up burning myself,
it hurts,
alot..

you probably wonder why i keep pushing you to other gals,
you're just too dangerous,
just like him.

you probably wonder why am i running away from you,
you're just too different,
different from him.

pretty boy,
i enjoy talking to you and the time with you,
but i can't seem to remember who am i talking to.

pretty boy,
i just hope someday i can get over everything,
and just be normal a bit whenever im with you.

pretty boy,
no one knows when will it be,
and perhaps its time for you to forget bout me.

hey pretty boy,
please forgive me coz i dont know wad to do,

it might not because of you,
but another.

sorry,
and goodbye.

random joke

1 So many people die, never see you die.
甘多人死，唔見你死。
2 You teach me how to come out and walk in the future?
你教我以後點出嚟行?
3 If you have enough ginger, put your horse to me.
如果你夠姜既話就放馬過嚟。
4 "I saw a pork chop"
我見到件豬扒啊。
5 Are you road?
你係咪路啊？
6 What the water are you?
你係乜水啊？
7 Do you big me?
你大我啊？
8 Zebra chops people.
班馬劈友。
9 The king of the cutting girl.
界女王。
10 Cut my head and let you sit on it as a chair.
批我個頭俾你當凳坐。
11 Do you think me didn't arrive?
你當我無到？
12 You have seed, I will give you some colour to see, brothers, together up.
你有種，我會俾D顏色你睇，兄弟，同我一齊上！
13 Today I was very black son.
今日我好黑仔。
14 I am wearing grass.
我著緊草。
16 Two beat six.
二打六
17 Two five son.
二五仔
18 Piano piano green.
琴琴青
19 I give you some colour to see see.
我俾D顏色你睇睇！
20 Stupid stupid want to move .
蠢蠢欲動。
21 People mountain people sea .
人山人海。
22 How senior are you?
你算老幾?
23 What the ghost are you talk?
你講乜鬼?
24 I fear that you have teeth.
我驚你有牙！
25 Heart flower angry open.
心花怒放。
26 Fish skin
魚皮。
27 Monster of blowing water.
吹水怪。
18 Face green green
面青青。
29 You see road carefully
你小心睇路
30 You go to street carefully
你出街小心D。
31 Do the world
做世界。
32 Big tea rice
大茶飯。
33 American chinese not enough.
美中不足。
34 King eight egg.
王八蛋
35 High hand.
高手
36 DO YOU Old dot ME?
你老點我呀?
37 One old water
一舊水
38 I know your mouse.
我識你老鼠！
39 Measure water/Pound water.
磅水
40 A dragon service.
一條龍服務
41 Pump water.?
抽水
42 I blow chicken to beat your group of the guys.
我吹雞打你班友。
43 You jump building.
你跳樓啦。
44 You come back home and eat banana
你返屋企食蕉啦
45 I give you a hair.
我俾條毛你ar!
46 Collect skin
收皮
47 Collect father
收爹
48 You give me collect father.
你同我收爹！
49 Laugh die me.
笑死我。
50 You give me stop.
你同我企系度。
51 Eight woman
八婆
52 Eight woman,you are good!
八婆，你好o野!

dance

i guess u guys just dont know me tat much even after so many years of friendship.
dance, stage, spotlights, cheer..
all these things mean much more than anything else to me.

---rant omitted----

i dun wanna blog about how frust I am towards u guys,
im here to tell u im upset,
im dissapointed,
im not happy,
im stress,

and u know wad?

u guys contribute substantially.

im not blaming u,
is my own problem perhaps.